Dear God,
I used to think, IF YOU WERE REAL WHY WOULD U SCREW UP MINE AND MY FRIENDS LIVES, but I’m now over that, I’m up to the stage that your either there or your not.
I was raped by my brother for 5 years, but of course you already knew that, and I know why u did that (if u were real), seriously I don’t know what to think, like there is so many things proving against you, and everyone calls your son Jesus which means they don’t like you.
Why cant u just show yourself to me, and prove to me that your there ???
I keep asking but i see nothing, as the saying matthew 7:7-8 says ask and you will receive, I haven’t recieved anything after many times of asking, please just help me god, show me your there,
Thanks xxx
Cruisez - AkA Sezza, Melbourne/Australia Share:
October 20th, 2008 at 9:02 pm
hey. im sorry sorry to hear about your situtatin and will be praying for you
God didnt want or make your brothr to do those things to you, people have free will and sometimes people make the wrong decisions. With hard things or situaions we should run to him not from him…
Im not sure weather i herd this in a talk or directly from the bible bt i remember something along the lines of . You ask for sings for me to prove myself to you. but the planet you live in and the things around you shoud be enough to make to belive
Good luck with evertything. x
October 21st, 2008 at 10:00 pm
I was wondering if any of you believe in destiny?
October 21st, 2008 at 11:58 pm
sorry to hear about your story and Kimberly’s too. It seems that there are alot of people out there who have been molested in some way. When I was about 5, I was molested by a great uncle and 2 cousins and one of them was a girl. I remember some of it. I wished that it didn’t happen at all but, I’m glad it happened when I was so young versus being a teenager. Memory is not that new. But, it’s still there. I’m sure the experience has effected me in some way. X had stated that God can’t interfere with someone’s free will, and that’s true. God didn’t stop Hilter from having millions of Jews slaughtered during WW 2. I’m sure they cried out for God in those death camps and wondered why he wasn’t doing anything about it. Sometimes when I think about a problem that I am having, I try to think, “well, it could be worse like…” For whatever reason, I got up early today, and just wanted to vent out what I’m dealing with and put in the search engine “Dear God” and this site was the first to pop up. Maybe in some way, God has brought us all together so Cruizez won’t feel alone and you are not dear. Israel was reborn again during and after WW2 so the Jews can have a home and you will be reborn too. Have you heard of Joyce Meyer? Brian Houston from Hillsong Church? There are many more famous preachers that I can name but, those 2 are my favorite and Ed Young is good to. Anyway, Joyce Meyer was molested by her father for many years. She has also written a book called “The Penny” I think the book is about 2 sisters and they are being abused by their dad. Joyce Meyer maybe able to help you out with some of her books or CD teachings. You can also get pod casts from itunes. Her website is http://www.joycemeyer.org.
I hope this helps. I came here looking for “something” to help me with my husband. He came back from Iraq about a month ago, he isn’t himself. Due to finicial circumstances, we live in different states, he won’t call but emails me as if he still in Iraq (I suppose he is in many ways) i lost my job and trying to find another one that matches what i was making before, etc., what do i do…on and on. From what I hear from some preachers is that all you need is a mustard seed of faith, I think there is a verse about it in Matthew chapter 7 or 20. I hoped whatever I said helped you out. Take care and I’ll pray for all of you on this page. It would be nice if there was a way that we can all write one another. Good Luck!!
October 26th, 2008 at 3:15 am
Nothing that happened to you happened ’cause of some divine being that controls everything. He/She/It doesn’t exist. People do horrible things and it’s understandable that you’d like to figure out some reason, in order to understand it. There isn’t any reason and being able to say it was an act of a god isn’t going to make you feel better. Your brother is awful and you should tell friends and family about it, after you’ve seen a counsellor who can help you come to terms with it. Don’t wait for some fictional being — help yourself out and make yourself happy. Waiting for god to sort it out will only prolong the pain you’re going through.
October 30th, 2008 at 10:35 am
I was wondering about that verse too. “ask and you shall receive…”
I don’t really ask for much, unless it’s my birthday. Only then do I wish and pray super hard for everything to be just right.
Well, the point is, I was in church the other sunday, when the pastor said, “do not just ask, say thank you.” Because He gives when you know you’re going to receive. And when you know you’re going to receive, you say Thank You.
October 31st, 2008 at 8:28 am
There’s a book written by T.D. JAKES called NAKED and NOT ASHAMED ( We’ve Been Afraid to Reveal What God Longs To Heal) I to was molesterd by 3 of my brothers and I think this book will help you and possible be an arrow to point you in the right direction to find Christ. Will keep you in my prayers
GOD BLESS!
November 4th, 2008 at 8:45 am
You are your own God. Love yourself but don’t praise yourself. You are what you are, and nobody or nothing can change it.
November 10th, 2008 at 3:34 pm
i’m not good with words, but i believe in God. the truth is this world is pretty messed up. but is it God who’s doing it or the humans? is God allowing it to happen? i believe that he’s waiting for each person to return to Him. in due time, God can fix it all. i’ve heard of the analogy that this world is like a crochet pattern. from our point of view, everything looks tangled up, but from the creator’s point of view, he’s in the process of creating a beautiful pattern. in due time, god will fix it all. in the meantime, i pray that god will give you the strength to go on and to trust in him. why God can’t just appear to you? if a guy came to you and said he was god, would you believe it? if something descended from the sky and said he was god, i might call nasa and tell them i’ve found a UFO. i might go see a psychiatrist. in my opinion, i think god does show himself in a lot of ways. looking at the trees and the sky makes me wonder about its creator. seeing how there’s love in this world makes me think about God. i pray that God will open your eyes and heart so that you may see Him.
November 10th, 2008 at 11:16 pm
God loves you a lot. You bring his same wounds in your body, heart and soul. And like Him, you can offer them for a lot of hearts’ sake. Stay with Him and with a community which can help you in your path and use your enormous gift. Be blessed
November 14th, 2008 at 1:23 am
Dear Friend:
I wept as I read your pain filled words. I, too was raped as a young child. I know the devastation of having a shattered soul and faith. God was not in the rape-yours or mine. Just as there is a God there is also a fallen angel that seeks to destroy lives and uses people. Your brother was an instrument in Lucifer’s hand. I don’t make light of your brother’s accountability.
The Bible talks about evil coming into our lives, but it also promises that evil will not prevail. In the Bible one of David’s daughters was also raped by her brother. What I suggest is first go see your family doctor. Explain to him that you may need medication for your anxiety and ask for help finding someone who can counsel you through this. As for God, find a small church that teaches from the King James Version of the Bible. Watch the demeanor of the members, if they are judgemental and unfriendly….find another church. Which ever church you find, take your time with it. It will be awhile before that friendship develops.
My friend, God is a gentlemen. He will not jump out at you. -But if you will seek him out, he will slowly introduce himself to you as you are able to grow in friendship with him. I write to you with experience in what I’ve spoken. It took me about six years to come out of my guarded walls. I am now remarried to a loving man who treats me with absolute kindness and respect. His family is wonderful to me. Our church family, have become closer than my friends. THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE!!!!!!
November 20th, 2008 at 5:37 am
Everything is perfectly the way it is.
God gives definately, however, hardly the way you expected it to be.
Most of the time, answers are provided through self, through a stranger, a friend or a relative.
It comes out of the blue.
It happens in a split second most of time.
And suddenly, you realise that God had been with you every step of the way, when you reflect on past events in your life that’s similar to the one that “clicked” everything right into place.
That’s how it’s shown most of the time.
November 20th, 2008 at 5:41 pm
Prayers and have faith. Bless you. Bless all.
December 6th, 2008 at 2:11 am
Dear fellow traveller, i also once had no belief.
I experienced terrible troubles and when i broke, God revealed himself and is teaching me how to piece things together again. He allows me to experience levels of human compassion, love, patience and oneness that made all the trouble worth it. If i had to do it again, i would, knowing that the reward far outweighs the effort. Believe me, he does exist and i have felt the actual presence on numerous occasions and in varied circumstances.
The physical clues are all around you, you just need to look closely. Pay attention to your purity, keep your mind and emotions still so you can listen to your soul because it is as that level that the communication happens. Sometimes you may feel like you are distant from everyone, and afraid. That’s fine, you are moving away from the clamour of your mind, emotions toward your soul. When you get there God helps you fix it because he operates at the soul level, rather than the mind and emotions.
The teachings to do the fixing of your soul, like Edwin says, will come in unexpected ways. snippets of a conversation, words on a billboard, words of a song, scenes in a movie, merely for a split second, but you will suddenly feel something being emphasised and your senses will be mildly heightened and you will realise you have just received a message or sign. The sign or message you receive will confirm a question or thought you may have had that day or sometimes even 10 years back, but your mind will make the link. Each confirmation of a thought or question brings peace at a soul level. Its hardly ever the incident that causes the prolonged pain, its the unending stream of questions afterward by the mind, why me? what if i did that? or this? or said that?
These direct signs happen while you are feeling low and then continues for about 7-8 months after your lowest point. It then continues until your soul is fixed and then is maintained in a gentle way with similar but lighter signs. Then you will become mindful of circumstances and sometimes each second and you will want to participate in pure activities knowing that there was a point when he carried you. If you are honest with yourself you will realise that at the point you broke, he was in fact carrying you all the while. Then out of deep respect and thankfullness you find you begin to radiate a warmth that others can feel. You have come through great pain and you will now show great understanding and love. Whatever or whoever triggered your journey, at this point appears immaterial in contrast to the enormity of God and what he’s brought you through. God blankets everything.
At this point he is working through you and people say things like “you have such a nice aura” or “you appear at peace” it is because you are. Your attachment to material things are gone, you feel free and light and in a respectful and loving way you feel compassion for those who have had not had the priviledge of being broken by and re-built by God.
As i was writing this, i got a sign. I misspelt “built” with “build”. Earlier today i corrected a document twice for exactly that comprehension error. Coincidence?, i think not. You will see when it happens you will just know.
love and regards
Uven Bunsee
love and regards
Uven Bunsee
December 6th, 2008 at 9:11 am
I am God, in that you have addressed this letter to God, and i am giving a reply.
Dont wait for him to come. Even if he does exist, he wont come. Fix your own life, seek help and advice from somewhere you know you will get it. Learn from your own experiences and help others.
We are all god in that we created the notion of god, and we are the ones answering the prayers addressed to him.
Good luck.
December 22nd, 2008 at 11:21 pm
There’s no such thing as humans being God, no such thing as Destiny/Luck. No.
It’s all God’s will.
Trust me dear, you are so much more blessed, comparing to the fatherless, widows, those who die because of hunger and so forth.
Things happen all for your own good (Romans 8:28).
Why did God let this things happen to you? Because He knew, that only you could pull through whatever you’ve faced. He knew, only you are able to stand, after all these circumstances. If not He’ll never ever let any thing like this happen. If you couldn’t take it, He won’t let you face it.
But as I said, things happen all for your own good.
(Matther 7:7) was the first verse that I actually loved a lot, and I used it in my prayers since the day I found it.
Sometimes I think, maybe it’s bad to ask so much. Maybe that’s why God’s not answering me.
But now I knew my thinking was wrong.
He’s testing whether you’re willing to have faith in Him. So I kept asking, and believing.
Since then I’ve experienced abundant blessings, and I know that you will too.
Keep on praying, Never lose faith.
You will come to a day, that (Matthew 7:7) will be the testimony of your life. God loves you : )
January 1st, 2009 at 8:28 am
Hey…
I just have one little story for you…i was at your point one day, indecisive if god existed or not. until one day i went to the beach and sat there for hours staring at the sky and at the water. I looked at the sky over and over telling god, if you’re real show me something, prove to me that you’re real. I’m not gonna say that god appeared to me that would be lying but as the wind began to caress my face i began to look around me and saw how perfectly everything went into place with each other, the way the sky doesn’t touch the water, the way the sun is in place, the moon follows the earth, the way my body is built. everything so perfectly designed, i had no choice but to accept that a divine being had to create everything. that divine person being god!
when i finally got up that day i felt more calm about life because i had allowed a peace to take over me that i had never had.