Dear God,
I’m in the middle of a mental struggle. I want to find myself, what I am and what I wanna do with my life. I want to be comfortable in my own skin, my own personality. I was in college but I dropped out because I felt inert, studying for a degree not to pursue something in my life but just to fill social expectations. My emotional being is waiting to be released, I want to be unleashed!
I want to find comfort, to fulfill my dreams, to fulfill my being. I want to help people, but I feel I can’t because I’m not completely in tune with me. I depend too much of what people think of me and I’m in a stage of my life where I feel I’m cleaning that part. But am I really doing it? God, I beg you to help me, I know I’ve disrespected you before and I will again, so I’m truly sorry. I’m being honest because I don’t have any other place to go and like a big liar and hypocrite, I come to you when all the doors are closing. Thank you for your love, I promise I’ll be loving as much as I can. Jaime, California/USAShare:
November 13th, 2008 at 11:58 am
It could’ve been me writing this prayer…
I feel you. How do we get outof this situation? Is courage all we need?
November 14th, 2008 at 5:56 am
I like your letter. Try not to be related on what poeple say. When you overcome this problem you will be able to concentrate on things you like and wanna do. And then poeple will start to value you. It is true. To help with it do whatever you like to do. In doing it you find youreself. Maybe find the subject you’d like to study.
Write pls how deal with it?
Best wishes,
Violeta
November 15th, 2008 at 1:25 am
omg, I could have wrote this prayer also. I’m in college in my first semester and i’m ALREADY changing my major. Yeah, I know how hard it is to not hear what people have to say because for me it’s my insecurities. I’m always constantly thinking about what people are thinking about me but then I always find those little things that help me inspire me to be who i TRUELY am. For instance that new song by T.I feat Rihanna “Live Your Life”. I’m in love with that song because it gives me that feeling of just being who you are with such huge confidence and self-esteem and not giving a sh-t about what people think. So basically music helps alot.
But i’ve learned that just having faith in God helps the most. Just do right unto him and he’ll do right unto you. Live every day like it’s your last and don’t just “say” it but actually do it. Just have that mentality and understand it, and you’ll look at life in a whole new way.
Take care & God Bless,
-Travis
November 15th, 2008 at 2:52 am
Your sentiment is something I have been living with for a long time… and to be honest, I think it represents how many people feel today. I think our fast-paced society of seemingly “easy money” and easy living lifestyles, very much about satisfying the Self, actually isolates the majority of the population - how come I haven’t “made it” already? How come i’m not married / have a great job / in a loving relationship / “insert personal goal here”… With the media bombarding us with images of extreme wealth and reality TV making millionaires out of ordinary folk, the ability to seem a “success” leaves the rest of us asking, what is wrong with me and my life? What am I doing wrong? Why do I let other people’s opinions validate me and my life? I really hope all of us who feel this way can take a healthy step back and think, ok. I’m not perfect, but hey, that’s ok! THAT’s actually normal! good luck with the search, I’m right over here smiling and in encouragement
November 16th, 2008 at 5:31 am
I’ve spent half of my life searching for myself and the other half running away from me…Both things took so much energy that it nearly killed me.
I believe that i am here on earth for a purpose and that is just that what so hit me in your words. i have to learn to be me and learn the things that i have to learn. I had to change my prayers to do thsi.
I changed them from saying , “God give me this, God give me That,” to “Thy Will Be Done Not MIne.”
And also i wake up in the morning and i have learned myself that before i do anything else i say….
THANK YOU.
Stephen, Germany.
November 19th, 2008 at 3:18 am
Thank you, For sharing this prayer. This is exactly how i feel… and did not know how to put it in words until i read this prayer.
Dear God, please make me strong, to be me… and not depend on what people think of me. Everything single breath i take seems like I owe it to someone. So many decisions i have taken and so many decisions i have not taken, because i did not trust myself and You. Lead me God into the light, into the strength and into the confidence. Let me be your tool.Make me courageous as I am the instrument in your hand. Let people feel Your blessings and remember You when they see the simple yet kind and wonderful work of your tools. I had and am, questioning what’s happening. I am sorry for that. But I do not know what is the right thing to do. Please give me clarity and wisdom.
“LET THY WILL BE DONE”
November 20th, 2008 at 12:06 am
jaime, your words, your prayer is mine as well. half way around the world, i almost fell off my chair when i stumbled upon this entry.
i think God is asking me to pray the same prayer to Him, and show the same determination, the same passion you showed in having yourself unleashed.
thank you.
November 20th, 2008 at 1:23 pm
I am in this position right now. I know the feeling. I wish I had encouraging words for you, but all I can say is that it won’t be like this forever. You’re struggling for a reason. What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, and the universe tends to unfold as it should.
Hang in there.
Jessika, OC, Cali
November 22nd, 2008 at 6:26 am
It is sooo good to know that I am not the only one feeling that way. Thank you for sharing that.
November 23rd, 2008 at 5:29 pm
it is definately true that you are not the only one in this situation.
there are many of us out there that are in the same situation.
i once was but then i got saved.
its okay to be different
just be yourself and if people dont apreciate that then they are a waste of your time!!!
just remember that god is always watching and even though you dont have a plan for your life yet…HE DOES
everything will fall in to place. you just have to believe.
and it doesnt matter how hard you try push god away he will always welcome you back!!
i recomend to everyone who reads this to go onto youtube and type in “lifehouse everything skit”
it is the best thing i have ever watched!!!
it made me cry but it was worth it.
it shows how much god loves us.
god bless you all
xo
November 25th, 2008 at 9:49 pm
Can you .. “see” this story?
To a fearful religious visitor the Master said, “Why are you so anxious”?
“Lest I fail to attain Salvation”.
“And what is Salvation”?
“Moksha. Liberation. Freedom”.
The Master roared with laughter and said, “So you are forced to be free? You are bound to be liberated”?
At that minute the visitor relaxed and lost his fear forever.
And when you have reached the mountain top, then you shall begin to climb.
Good luck..
December 11th, 2008 at 5:15 am
i carry your heart with me
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
A poem by ee cummings
jaime - thanks for being honest. I think everyone who posted a reply resonated well with what you said. This poem is a way of saying, “we carry this with you.” You are not alone.
February 3rd, 2009 at 10:51 am
Declare your dreams to God, run, run with them as fast as you can, be free
February 17th, 2009 at 10:13 am
Where in the bible does it say Jesus cared about what others thought of him? Folks God wants you to get out there and try living, do something, if it is wrong it can be fixed. For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son. What do you have to give? Your love for one another? I think so. Don’t be materialistic, maybe you should be in college, maybe you shouldn’t, ask God. 50 years ago I put my faith in God. Let me tell you it is not easy as a young man to give control of anything to anyone, but you must. Give ‘total faith’ and trust in the LORD thy God and you will be delivered. It aint easy, but was it easy for Jesus to be beaten, have a crown of thorns on his head, whipped, stabbed and hung on a cross for us? He had faith in his father that it would turn out alright. Please have faith. It starts Sunday morning in the church of your choice. God loves you and so do I.
March 5th, 2009 at 11:54 am
I cry as i read this because its me.I feel your pain in so many ways.Keep pushing forward and I promise the Lord our God will show you exactly who you are and you will feel such joy my friend.Love you in Jesus name.
April 20th, 2009 at 5:59 pm
you are the Son of God. That’s who you are.
see Romans