Dear God,
Please help me to believe in love and happiness. I’m finding it hard to keep believing. My dad died when I was three, and my grandad died when I was seven. I often get bullied at school and everything I try to do in life I fail at. It’s sad that I have given up on life at the tender age of thirteen, but I just don’t see the point in living anymore. I feel like I’m just going through the motions. Whenever I try to talk about it to other people they just think I’m having a teenage mood swing. I’ve felt like this for almost a year now. Please help me to see the beauty in life, please give me something to look forward to. Please show me a sign that someone somewhere cares, please give me something to live for. Molly, EnglandShare:
December 1st, 2008 at 11:25 am
i believe ,God will give everyone certain difficulties to get through.and till now you have nearly finished yours ,there is happiness and love in front of you, dont give up.
December 1st, 2008 at 3:00 pm
i care.
December 1st, 2008 at 3:18 pm
Dear Kelly,
It must be extremely painful being bullied. I understand that kids can be cruel. You must be very resilient to have come so far having lost your father at a tender age. But Kelly, you can’t give up hope. Do see the school counsellor if required. More importantly, surround yourself by people who love you for who you are — the number of friends doesn’t count, it’s the quality that does. Life is full of ups and downs, but we must try our hardest not to stay on the downs for too long.
Hope things work out for you,
Cheers!
December 1st, 2008 at 4:45 pm
i care too.
December 1st, 2008 at 4:52 pm
Jesus said, If you feel like the whole world hates you, remember they hated me first. He knows what it feels like to lose a loved one and He knows what it’s like to be rejected. But most importantly, He loves you and will lift you up to make something truly beautiful of your life if you let Him. You are a precious child to the Creator of Heaven and Earth, and no one can take that away. You are the beauty to be found in your life, look forward to seeing His face and the blessings in store along the way, the sun will shine again. You have every day of the rest of your life to live for Christ, because He knew you were worth dying for. This is your sign that someone cares. You are not alone and I will pray for you. Much love to you!
December 1st, 2008 at 7:21 pm
Dear Molly,
There are so many reasons that God made you. The Bible says that God’s word will not return to him unfulfilled and when He spoke you into existence, it was not for you to return to Him a purpose unfulfilled. I know that you are a child, but, I believe that God will provide you understanding to these words. Recently I heard a pastor say that God allows obstacles that are bigger than we are to enter our lives as a testimony to the destiny he has for us. Your destiny must be a huge and wonderful one! Do not give up so early that you don’t get to see it. As time goes on, life will bring joys and disappointments, but, remember the source of your strength— it comes from the Lord. You are so special to God.Never forget that. Even if others try to make you feel unimportant, it is usually because they refuse to see the path God has put before them in their own life. I may never meet you in this earthly realm, but, I pray for you and know that God’s love and peace will cover you. Stay encouraged!
Love from a Sister in Christ,
Aayoka
December 1st, 2008 at 8:36 pm
Dear Molly,
God has not forgotten you. Don’t give up! Don’t give in! Today God is here, in this place. With you, with me, with us. As long as you have life you have hope.
Pray - speak to God. When it’s tough run to God. Run to His Son, Jesus Christ. Be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. For He is our strength.
When I get down I pray, I get closer to Jesus and I encorage others because when we take our eyes off our own problems we realize that there are others in a similar postion or even more worse than ours. There is so much to live for. So many people who need you, Molly. If you give up what about all the other “Molly’s” who need you to pray for them or help them. If you give up how will they ever hear your story of how you overcame your difficulties in childhood, cause one day you will look back at this time in your life and you will realize that it was all worth it cause what doesn’t destroy us will make us stronger!
Be strong, God strong!
I love you with the love of the Lord. You are a very brave young lady!
Pauline
December 2nd, 2008 at 4:06 am
dear molly, i care!
life is so full of surprises, there’s so much to live for but you just don’t know it yet. in my life the best things always have come to me when i least expect it, you just have to be patient and try to persevere in the mean time. look ahead, fantasize about what you might become one day, having your own children, falling in love (probably many many times), discovering new places, having your own home, finding your dream job, the list never ends. whenever life is tough and i wonder if there’s any point in living i think about how much i’d miss out on if i wasn’t here. life is a blessing, just possibly in disguise from time to time, but there are so many new opportunities and experiences just waiting for you to come and get them! there will always be a better time ahead of you. hold your head up high! be brave and do what you feel like. you can be anything you want to be. only you have control over of your life and you can take it wherever you want it to go. there’s nothing you can’t do if you put your mind to it but it just takes a struggle to get there sometimes. you sound like a very intelligent girl with a lot of potential to do something great with your life. you really do have your whole life ahead of you! get out there and live it! you were brought to this world to do something great!
i really hope i’ve helped and that you get through this difficult time.
stay strong.
xxxxxxxxx
December 2nd, 2008 at 10:01 am
My dad was arrested when I was young, don’t remember a thing about him. (don’t want to)
My mom went to rehab when I was young, it didn’t help. (I was taken from her by law)
My grandparents have all died between the times that I was 6-14
My best friend is suicidal, my sister is.
I realize this, and I’ve realized what it’s done.
I couldn’t let go of my past, I would carry it with me like a ton of bricks, every time something good happened, I’d just throw a brick at it.
My past was effecting my future.
I decided that I was going to appreciate the challenges in life, because those are what makes are victories ACTUAL victories.
You have to appreciate the finer things in life, like you had a roof to live under.
You had parents who cared.
You had grandparents that loved you.
It’s the loss of those things, that makes us realize just how great they are.
And how great they are should be enough to forgive the loss of those things.
Whether your sad or happy is up to you, I never liked thinking of the darker things of life, because you’re thoughts turn into your actions after enough thinking. If you think of only sad things you become a sad person, sad people lose friends easily, and tend to travel down those roads that should never be ventured.
Oh yeah, I’m 15 by the way. So I can sort of relate to handling things at a younger age.
December 2nd, 2008 at 10:53 am
I care too!
Good luck–you can make it through this. Don’t give up!
December 2nd, 2008 at 11:52 am
don’t worry, you will be fine.
i care
December 2nd, 2008 at 5:20 pm
Dear Molly, never stop believing, God has better plans for us, than the ones we plan, most of the time we can’t see things clearly, but eventually all the pieces will fall in the right place, hang on in your believes, and keep on loving what you have left, learn form everything, and keep your faith strong, I’ll pray for you.
Flor
December 3rd, 2008 at 7:44 am
Dear Molly,
I lost my father at age 7, my grandparents died when I was very young, and my mom when I was in my early twenties. The Bible says God is a father to the fatherless and a husband to the widow. I have reminded Him of this promise many times over the years and I can truly say He has always been there for me. Sometimes it’s hard to feel His presence when you are hurting but you can always rely on His word. He will never leave you or forsake you, so trust Him to meet you right where you are. Try saying prayers of thankfulness for everything you can think of. Do something nice for someone who can’t return the favor. Sing songs of praise and worship - even if you sing out of tune - God knows your heart and He will respond.
Be blessed.
December 3rd, 2008 at 11:28 pm
God hear you, know you and know whats inside of you, God is closer to you more than what you expect.
Always, remember God test the people he loves, Haven is not for free, and also wishes to see their strong faith in him.
Trust God and keep your faith strong, do not let no one to put you down, you are the best creation of God? Ask forgiveness of God
Praise God Almighty, make sure this hard time will end and there will be a lovely green happy life.
We all love you and we all care for you, you read the above comments and saw how many who do care, its not just words we typing in here, we do care, and we love you, we would not know that sugar is sweet if we did not taste salt!
Say to yourself, “I am strong, God is with me, God is watching over me, I will pass this time and I will look forward for a bright feature”
God who I ask to help, protect, bless,forgive and happiness to be over your life and to make Haven to be your host in the life after.
Good luck
December 5th, 2008 at 3:29 am
God Loves you! I know it is hard to be happy sometimes, but knowing that God, the creature of you and I, the universe and the abundance in it, loves you! That means A LOT!
December 5th, 2008 at 3:30 am
Oops, meant creator
December 5th, 2008 at 7:10 pm
Molly ..first big big big hugs. From the time I was 12 to 15 I tried suicide 5 times, was on suicide watch many times, had a rough home life..but really who hasn’t.
I am 49 now, I made it..have I thought of suicide since then yes hon..it can become a strong barrier in your life but EVERY barrier can be overcome with the strength and guidance of Jesus.
He showed me a long time ago, that I am like a house. In this house is many many windows. During that time in my life I was looking out a window with a brick wall and it appeared dark and gray, no hope, no life, no thought of anything but that dreariness in my soul. This dark time will pass, it will not stay the same and if we end it now we never give it a chance to change.
I always thought life would be better off without me and that was a lie I believed for a very long time. I planned how my funeral would be and would really work up a good feeling sorry for me that made it even worse and made it hard for others to even be around my morbid lil self. I finally after the last bout of suicide..decided the hell with it and if God was going to keep me around might as well live, and made a choice for life. Every day it is a choice, and it is the little choices that make up our day to day existance that either make us or break us..and the only one that can help us over come barriers is Jesus…and that is a choice as well.
Choose life and life more abundantly. Today is a gift, it is up to you to open it and either live or exist in it. Living I have found is sooo much better then existing. Do me a favor, go volunteer at a nursing care facility, read to someone that can’t read, play cards with someone lonely, volunteer at a vets office to walk their animals or a pet shelter …something giving of yourself and you will be amazed what is given back to you. Best of luck and life to you Molly…don’t give in..don’t give up..those two little phrases are what I live by daily.
December 6th, 2008 at 5:25 pm
I truly hope God will bless you and help you find your life, he will surely give you a sign in your life.
I understand it is hard to find happiness in your heart at this time.
December 7th, 2008 at 7:03 am
wait and be silent
December 8th, 2008 at 12:01 am
Hi Kelly,
I am touched by your story but one thing I’d like to tell you is Jesus Christ Loves and cares about you more than you can imagine. Also all of us who have posted comments in this forum care about you. Please do not lose the battle so soon as you are still too young to give up on life. Always believe that God loves you and ask him to show you his great love and for sure he will show you. Just be sincere in your prayers. God bless you.
Mo
December 8th, 2008 at 1:26 pm
This is a 20 people sign. We as people wear masks that hide our feelings and our own personal truths because that is what society has made of individuals, what it requires to keep going the way it goes.
If you are looking for love somehow, you have found it.
This is a 21 people sign.
You’ll understand more and more that people are shit, but there is something very strange because we are still alive. I think, once you feel better about yourself because of yourself you’ll be unstoppable, and I also think, the future is now, today is the day, today is the day of the rest of your life, don’t wait for things to happen, and least I’m not anymore.
Anyway, love,
The 21st sign carrier
December 8th, 2008 at 1:41 pm
Hi Kelly,
Don’t give up please beleive that god will help you i been there too and i didnt have hope but then i started to pray to god to help me and i beleive in him and he heard me he helping me to deal with all those haters and my life and people who wanted to do harm to me and he block all the wrong people around me and only bringing good there so many thing that he has done for me that i didnt think i would make it thru but he did if for me and he will do it for you when ever u are in a bad place or someone picking on you call god say god help me and he will please write so everyone knows you are okay i care love mona
December 8th, 2008 at 3:23 pm
Wow. You’re thirteen? By the way you write with such heart, I never would have guessed. Well you’re definantly good at writing. Try writing poems or short stories. Thats what I did when I was down or angry. It helped me alot. I have an entire accordian style folder filled with poems.
December 9th, 2008 at 9:09 am
People care but maybe you do not see this at every moment of everyday.
Learn to see the best in each day, a new beginning in every sunrise….it’s hard, oh so hard! But believe me when I say that you can find a way. Do you think that you are strong enough? Well, you are - you have just proved it by writing your feelings down. Looking for all the answers? We all are, but together we can always try to strengthen our inner selves. Keep talking and remember that each day you get older and you are getting closer to the moment at which you WILL BE PROUD of yourself.
Most of all you must learn to care about yourself. No-one will do this better than you. We are all here to help but it’s up to you.
New resolve for the morning: See the good in each day, in each person and in each word spoken. Don’t look for the meaning - just be….
Keep writing…hope to see you words again….x
December 10th, 2008 at 7:05 pm
Dear Sweet Molly, I know that life can be very hard sometimes. It doesn’t seem fair. Sometimes it looks as if there isn’t a God, but there is. Sweet Pea, don’t give in - just remember that God does love you. My little daughter-in-law lost her mother to a fire. She was placed in foster care. Nwo though, she has made it through and has two wonderful little boys of her own. Someday, if you will just hang on, God will bless you too. Trust in God. Always trust in God. When I went through hard times in my life it felt as if God had deserted me. I couldn’t see him, or feel him in anything that I did. Then, as the poem “Foot Prints in the Sand” says I looked back and I realize that he carried me through thoes hard times. I grew stronger having gone through. This old life is hard, but God put us here to do a job and baby you haven’t done your job yet. Ask yourself why am I here. You were put here to do a job. Baby, stop thinking about taking your life and focus on doing good things for God. Smile and show Gods love through you. Let God use you and in return you will feel better. I know that you miss your loved ones, but someday after you have finished - you will see them again. You will probably have children of your own someday. Hang in there baby, don’t take away you - don’t give up!!! You are a true blessing from God.
December 12th, 2008 at 6:11 am
Molly,
Your challenge is to believe God for Him to show you He loves you. Sometimes this is difficult to see through the pain of life, but when His love shows through, all the pain begins to heal. I am a Christian Husband, and my foremost prayer is God let me show my wife love like You would show her. People are falliable, but God can show his love to you, even through falliable people. If you can, take your mind off yourself, and focus your attention on others. You can be a healing light for the next person. I will be praying for you.
Your friend in God,
Patrick
December 12th, 2008 at 1:55 pm
Molly, I care. You’re important to me. I love you.
December 12th, 2008 at 4:01 pm
Molly ,
I am going to pray for you now and you can read the prayer for yourself. Father , I come bodly to your throne of grace, to petition you on behalf of Molly. Clearly if anyone can see the need that is in her hearrt, it is you. Your word tells us, that you are not deaf, that you cannot hear, nor is your hand short, concerning your promises to us, and that you are not a man that you should lie. I ask that you open the eyes of her understanding, send laborers across her path to help to answer those difficult questions that are inside her, that only you know, she doesn’t know how to ask. That the peace, that you have that passes all description of human words, will flood her spirit, as she casts all of her care upon you, for you do care for what you created. Some times however we miss your warnings as we are frail human beings .
But you made us to be frail, so that we can learn to depend on you ! We are a spirit, who has a soul, housed in a body. St John 10:10-11 tells us that you came, so that we could enjoy life and have life more abundantly, the thief comes only for to kill, steal,and to destroy.You are not a God who gives life and then kills people. Your word also tells us that we are ” wonderfully, and magnificantly made, and if you created us how dare anyone talk ill of God’s handiwork.
Thank You Father for creating Molly , for giving her the talents that she has yet to discover. The color of her hair, the texture of her skin, the smile upon her face, the color of her eyes and mostly that piercing smile that lights upon her face.,all was and is your handiwork, How dare anyone to criticize anything about her. Let them take it up with you if they do, as she is everything of your making and noone told you how to make her.
Thank you for lifting her spirit, setting her mind at ease ,as you know what she has need of even before she ask’s and that she can take comfort in knowing that you are moving in her behalf already to do exceedingly, abundantlyfar above what we can ask or think, as your ways are higher than our’s. And that without” Faith ” it is impossible to please you, Hebrews 11:6. Mark 1:22 tells us ” Have faith in God”
So we are believing you and you will not let us down, for this petition in Molly’s behalf. As your word tells us ” ask without doubting, for if we doubt we shall not recieve anything from you. So Father, the only thing we are going to doubt is “doubt” itself, as we know in whom we have believed. Mark 11:22-25 .
Thank you for Molly and allowing me the priviledge to speak Faith filled words over her, for life changing results. We ask these things in Jesus name that you will be glorified through Molly, Amen ( So be it ).
Should you have more questions, the answers are on the way !
December 12th, 2008 at 10:17 pm
In a weird way, it does make sense. A lot of posts have proclaimed that it was dumb to give HCRP an extension AND to fire him mid-season. In a weird way it actually can make sense to do both things. First, regarding the mid-season firing.
December 15th, 2008 at 6:19 pm
i care.
December 17th, 2008 at 5:27 am
that happened to me also. i’m not going to say that is just your age. cuz that is not what you want to hear. It happened to me since I was like 12 years old. but now I’m 16. and I think that life gets better as you get older. trust me. things happen for a reason. When I felt that way. I always used to say to myself: “God, if you’re out there, I know you’re going to compensate all of this, because this is happening for a reason”
To learn, Life’s Lessons ♥
December 17th, 2008 at 8:18 pm
I want you to know something, those of us that started on the hard track always make the distance. We have learnt all the toughest lessons on death, lonliness and pain before we needed to. People get older and weaker and adversity gets harder to deal with. Starting so young means you have stronger foundations then most.
And yes, the darkness in your heart is there, its real and its not leaving you. Dont worry, those little pigs that make things hard now will suffer when youre all grown. I promise that, and have taken great joy in seeing them fall.
December 18th, 2008 at 4:28 pm
Hey,
I was exactly the same. Thirteen, life felt like it was over. I only ever got through to anyone when my Dad went on a rampage and I cried because I thought it was my fault, then it all just came out.
Someone out there will believe you. Someone will listen. Someone will help you.
Just jeep praying.
December 20th, 2008 at 4:55 am
Dear Molly
I was so touched by your e-mail and had to read the comments. Did u count how many people truly care for you even if they don’t know u personaly. There is always hope - cling to it!!!
Keep on trying to get help until you find that 1 person willing to listen to you.
December 30th, 2008 at 4:10 pm
Molly,
The fact that you have asked to see the beauty in life shows that you still have hope, and hope is all-important.
You are so young, and you have had to endure such heartache. Please know that so many people who have passed your age have felt the same despair as you, and have gone on to live wonderful, fulflling lives. I remember being young and feeling as though there was so very little left, I felt as though no one recognized or saw my pain. It is, unfortunately, a part of life for so many. I, too, was bullied in school — I was a skinny nerdy-type of person, and people around me didn’t see much promise. Today, I own my own business, and do what I truly love to do — create. I do this with wood, tile, paint — I have made my own path and couldn’t be more pleased. I’m not rich with a huge bank account, but I am rich in so many other ways. The people I serve are happy, they love my creations, and their happiness makes me happy. It is very enriching with each person I encounter, each smile I help make.
Wake up early and watch the sun rise. That is God working. Create beauty of your own, that is God working. Don’t give up. You haven’t failed at everything you’ve tried. You just haven’t found what you’re truly good at, that’s all. Give yourself some time. You’ll find it, and when you do, everything will fall into place and you’ll wonder why it took you so long. God’s got a plan for all of us — we each excel at something. It’s up to us to search for it, don’t give up and find it, and take it as far as you can. In doing so, you serve God and your fellow man.
Another person’s post read that you write well. You indeed do that, and very eloquently, so, in your prayer and post, maybe you have found the thing in which you shine. Keep it up — you’ll be ok.
And, by the way, I care.
December 30th, 2008 at 5:02 pm
PLEASE READ!
About people caring…. well I sure hope I count.
So here goes…
I can’t claim to fully understand you because we all go through unique circumstances and we all have unique minds. Let’s face it, you’re no one’s open book and I respect that. But I do feel I relate.
I had a horrible childhood and adolescence. Yeah… I was the kid that even the dorks picked on. And I didn’t live with particularly stable parents. My mother used to wake me up by hitting me with a belt. It didn’t physically hurt. It really didn’t have to. They really did love me, they were just brought up with that kind of mentality and they were just bipolar inconsistent. Let’s just say that I was a really confused child… and I felt deeply abandoned by everything and everyone.
Ironically, I can vouch for the fact I was the nicest kid you could ever meet. And I truly believe you have a beautiful soul. I’m sure that your loved ones that have moved on are very proud of you. If not for yourself, LIVE FOR THEM! I know how hard it is to be a teenager. There are certain psychological reasons for why those teenaged years can amplify pain. But the pain being amplified is very real! And even the amplified aspect of that pain is VERY REAL and VALID! Also, you’re going through things that adults themselves would have a hard time dealing with. I know of people who wouldn’t have been able to hack it. You’ve been resilient thus far. And no one, NO ONE, is in ANY position to belittle your pain!!!
Don’t let yourself be fooled into thinking that this world is lonelier than it really is. Someone ALWAYS cares. You’re what they left on this earth! You’re their legacy. And they can live on through you.
I mean all that I say. I care!! My heart just shrivelled when I read this and I just had to reply! I will hold you in my prayers and deeply in my heart, as will many others. Let this serve as comfort when you’re all alone in your room feeling so empty that you’d think you’d just rather fade into nothingness. The tangible isn’t everything. Know that we’re all with you, and that multitudes of people have been where you are!
May God bless and keep you.
Sincerely yours, Ruth
January 1st, 2009 at 8:47 am
i got lots of probs of my own dont know how to deal with them its strange and very scarey at times but i just live by praying and thanking God for everything coz therz nothing special i can do execpt for him and i’ll wait for the time he’ll show up to me and save me! love you God, love you Jesus! no one as great as you are
January 1st, 2009 at 9:56 am
I know you are only 13 and I understand what you are going through, trust me. It looks like everyone has given you the encouragement/support you needed. I will give you something a little different a simple truth of life my buddy clued me in on that I should have known.
Get a little piece of paper (small enough to fit in your wallet).
On one side write “Turn over card and Repeat Outloud 3 times a day”
On the other side write “Shut the F@CK UP. Life is NOT fair. MOVE ON”
I laughed at that little “gift” my firend gave me but funny thing I still have it in my wallet and I still say it 3 times daily. I am much better for it. Sometimes you need to just Shut the F@CK UP. Be quiet and listen to the others around you.
Life is NOT fair. Well it is not but we get what we need and go through what we need to get us ready for our moment in life when we dont matter but helping others does. In other words. I stopped worrying about how I was going to help myself but rather help someone else. Funny thing, I have always been more than satisfied.
Move on. dont get hung up on being bullied but dont turn the other cheek either. tell the people in charge to do their jobs because you dont feel you should. the bullies are the ones with the real problems anyways. they are all messed up in the head.
January 3rd, 2009 at 5:20 pm
Molly I can truly relate, I quit school because I was being bullied. I use to love school, I was a straight A student however I was to scared to go to school, A few month after I quit my mother died. And there is more to the story, however I want you to know that it is normal for you to feel discouraged however hang in there, I highly enocurage you to attend a church that has a youth group that is uplifting. I wish that I would have been christian back then, I would not have suffered so much. I say that because I married a man that is a non believer and he has put me through hell. I can tell you that your mind can be transformed and you can gain confidence and peace by reading the holy scriptures, praying, fasting and by finding a christian friend who has a good head on her shoulder to be uplifting to you. And don’t let the bully get you down God will deal with her, He dealed with mine. I also use to feel useless however that is the enemy (satan) wanting to get you down, God Says you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. I am sending you my email adress if you want to keep in touch. May the Lord Bless you. I will pray for you.
God is our refuge and strength a very present help in trouble. psalms 46:1
felisidad.garcia@yahoo.com
January 3rd, 2009 at 6:00 pm
Hi, Mollie: I care, as well. I was just like you as a teen. I even had the thoughts of ending it all because at times it just got so tough. Both of my parents were alcoholics. Although I knew my parents loved me, they did not take care of me or shelter me in any way. They were hardly ever around. I was pretty much raised by my older brothers (who left me alone a lot) and the streets. At one point, my father was homeless and my mother had a new boyfriend (which I hated because I wanted my father). I missed my dad so much - even though he was an alcoholic and wasn’t the type to show his “love,” I had the strongest feeling of love from him. Unfortunately, when he drank, he would beat my mom into oblivion, but strangely, if asked who I wanted to be with, I would still have said my father - I don’t really recall a time that my father ever spanked me, but my mother sure did (belts, switches, hand). Since I had no one to watch over me, I was touched and fondled a few times. That was really hard to deal with - still is sometimes. Again, those “thoughts” entered my head time and time again. I didn’t realize it at the time, but my broken home and childhood was preparing me for something great to come…my gifts from God.
I moved in with my sister when I was about 12. I remember hearing her fighting with her husband about me living there. She was my mother for the next five years of my life. She was also young, so she did not really “mother” me a whole lot, but she did try to keep me safe and she defended me. She has no idea how much I love her and appreciate all that she tried to do for me. During this time, I would still have this strong depression looming over my head and thoughts of going to sleep forever. I hated that feeling ! By the time I was 13, I was smoking cigarettes, drinking, and smoking marijuana. I lived life quite dangerously, but somehow I managed to make it to 17. I still dealt with a lot of depression, and even “attempted” suicide at one point. Fortunately for me, I found out that the pills I tried to take to overdose with were antibiotics, which did not kill me, but sure made me sick for days!!
It wasn’t until I met my husband (he was 21 and I 17) that thoughts of suicide were not even an option anymore. I still had bouts of depression, but they were few and far between and my husband helped me through them. We had our first son when I was 19 and my life has been, for the most part, wonderfully fulfilling and blissful. My depression would still come and go, but it was tolerable, and again, my husband was a great support. After having my son my whole life changed forever – I changed forever! I was never really a selfish person, but I knew that I had to make my son my top priority, to be the best mother ever. I would be nothing like my parents.
My husband and I now have three sons (ages 6, 12, and 17). My children are my life and have fulfilled my life like nothing else could. I love and thank God for my life, for sending me such a great husband, and three of the best sons ever! We are trying for one last child, but sadly, we miscarried this summer. Losing my Angel Baby broke my heart, but I know I will meet my baby someday. I trust in God and that He has taken my baby for a reason, but I am praying He will grace me with another soon.
So you see, life is full of sadness, yes - but it also has so many wonderful things to offer and if you leave, you will miss it all - I know I would have. I have worked very hard to raise my children properly. They are handsome, intelligent, witty, funny, and loving. I have no doubt they will become great assets to society. I believe my plan was to raise them this way because God also has a great plan for them! I believe we are all stepping stones in a way
Mollie, please visit my blog (I recently started blogging) and feel free to leave me comments or email me if you just need someone to talk to. Stay strong, sweetie - and trust that God does have great plans for you, and He loves you very much.
Love,
JustMe
January 12th, 2009 at 10:54 pm
I care.
And I agree with everything else said sofar. Do you see how lucky you are to have so many people reach out to you?
I guess I just want to say that I’ll be here for you. My shoulders are wide; you can cry on them anytime. I have time, and I want to listen to you. I want to be your friend. I’ll attach my email adress at the bottom of this message, so you can reach me anytime.
Good luck, and I hope to hear from you soon
Dominique
dominiqueviljoen@yahoo.com
January 15th, 2009 at 10:41 am
May you find the Goddess. She will lift you up through everything and teach you to shed your cocoon and fly. May you find inner strength, self love, and the power that only comes through adversity. May you shine.
January 18th, 2009 at 6:14 am
hey molly,
i know its hard. i cry alot in the bathroom where no one can see. i used to think i was alone but every single day i see Gods hand in my life and it makes me know that there is someone who cares more than you could ever ever imagine. . . . .and my tears dry.
im the same age as you 13.
and my family has gone through alot. . .my grandpa got cancer. and he is my hero, my role model. i lurv him soooo much. and my life seemed like it was crashing. and the worst thing is he was in the US getting treatment and i dint see him for a year and a half. !.
and i cried and cried. . , but God really came through and he was healed. . .COMPLETELY.
sumtimes i can t believe it myself that there is anyone . . . . . but Gods marvelous deeds reasure me everytime.
and i hope that it can be the same for you.
God loves you.
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February 3rd, 2009 at 10:46 am
When my emotions get the better of me, when I feel as though I cannot carry on, I take a glance to heaven and this is what I hear…”you are beautiful, I love you with all my heart, I will get you through this, take my hand, trust me, I will never leave you even to the end of the age.” Never give up, I have never met you Molly but I care about you and I care that you are hurting. I will pray blessing into your life.
February 5th, 2009 at 3:36 am
Sweetheart - the fact of the matter is there is no god - YOU are god… in your world, that is. I used to have thoughts about killing myself. I took a step back and thought: WHY? Well, because I hated my school, had no friends, had no “fun,” didnt get along with my parents - but life is a GIFT! There is so much wonder in the world. If you are willing to die you might as well take an insane risk and chance! Pack all of your belongings, get a tent and sleeping bag and try to ride your bike across the US. Youll be removed from all your problems BUT you wont be dead!!! Youll be free to do whatever you want. Sure, it will be hard - youll have to figure out ways of getting food and water, work odd jobs to make ends but think of the adventure youll have! I dont know what your interests are BUT life really is what ou make of it and if you are SO down and out you are willing to die!… then just wholly remove yourself from everything and everyone - there is a huge world out there with endless possibilities and oppurtunities. Why am I saying all this? Because I care - because I have stopped on a sunny day by the side of the road to breath the air dancing off the spring leaves and closed my eyes to feel the blue of sky against my face - THAT is god, and it is all out there for you to take! You only live once kiddo - afterlife is NOT promised or guaranteed! Make the most of it, who knows when youll have that chance again! And when youre done you can write a book about it and get rich! Hang in there - problems fade, enemies die, and winter always makes way for spring!
Sincerely
Earl Grey
February 9th, 2009 at 3:41 pm
hi, molly..
i care..
the people who left their replies care…
God cares..
and He made us care too..
i love you..
February 17th, 2009 at 9:55 am
Molly, YOU ARE THE BEAUTY OF LIFE!!! At 13, almost 14 you can’t see that yet. You said that your father and grandfather have passed. I am so sorry to hear that, but Molly you haven’t. I bet if I knew your grandfather and your father being from England they must have been stuborn. I bet you are too. Also being from England they had to be giving, I say that because of World War 2, so many of the English people died and fought for THEIR country. When I would have met your father and grandfather I would have seen the love for their family in their eyes, just like the love you have in yours. Molly, I don’t know why your father and grandfather were taken from you. I do know that they live within you. You have great memories of your grandfather and some of your dad, cherish them. I have a feeling you grieve so hard for them because they loved you so much. If you check within your self you will see them their with you everyday.
Now about the bullies, I want you take a self defense class. They should be offered by your constable or they know where they are offered. When you are bullied you will learn how to handle them. I know I should tell you to turn the other cheek, but sometimes a lesson must be taught before we turn that cheek. God Loves You Molly, hang in their you stouborn Englishwoman.
February 19th, 2009 at 4:28 am
I know of this girl who was also orphaned at your age and had to liv ewith family members who ill treated her like mad. But God revealed Himself to her and now she is one of the happiest people on the planet and is a potential leader!!! you ask God for happiness. He will give it to you because that is exactly what he wants for you that i can guarantee. Your life is yet to be full of blessings that will just make your head spin!!!Be expectant when asking and u will receive in abundance!!!
February 19th, 2009 at 4:10 pm
Molly,
We all care. Please do not let the adversities you’ve encountered discourage you. At 13 we feel like the whole world is against us; authority figures do not respect us, they do not take us seriously, our bodies are dramatically changing, but it gets better. Don’t worry too much about the things that you cannot control; bullies, do not hide from them, but do not confront them, they live to argue or to fight. You’re better than all of them and they do not deserve your attention. If it gets to be too difficult at school, seek help from your friends, a group is more difficult to bully. Ignore them. Appreciate your friends, tell those who you love, just that: I love you.
Keep yourself busy and try to replace your troubled thoughts with some exercise, enjoy the weather, and try to focus your efforts looking at how the most important person for you will succeed. BTW - that’s you!
Molly it is NOT your fault and there are a lot of people who DO care about you.
Whether religious or not, there are at least 50 people from different parts of the world who care about you.
With love from Oregon, USA
February 22nd, 2009 at 5:47 am
It is frustrating when you can’t communicate how you are feeling but there are 51 people who are taking you seriously. Mood swing or not it doesn’t make the pain any less real.
Anyway a reason to keep going is that life does get better for one thing most bullies grow up. I was bullied at school and I dreaded the school reunion party but I was pleasantly suprised to find that those who had bullied me in the past were now very reasonable people.
At the age of 13 there is so much of life that is inaccessable, so much of the world that you can’t explore on your own. Life is like a book sometimes you just need some time to get into it.
March 7th, 2009 at 7:44 pm
I care about you. Everyone on this sight cares about you. God cares about you.
If you can find a secluded spot in a forest or on a beach or anywhere alone outdoors. Go there and close your eyes, feel the wind in your face, and thank the Lord for your beautiful life. Do this everyday for two weeks. Each day thank the Lord for at least one thing, even if it’s something like a good tasty breakfast.
Remember this - God loves you.
March 20th, 2009 at 1:46 pm
hallo
the most important thing is that god keep your health and keep you good with all problems around you it seems that god loves you very much and keeps you safe and secure
as you see hummans are not all good so you pass of a life scooll to understand in what world we live after that you have to understan your self and how good you can understand this world and live with and when you are ready all going to happend very easy for you
but stand and think are you keep your self in past or you keep your self in apain and you do not leave your self to go to future
you can go through a closed door but door of our soul must open .when in ready in in right time the scool of life show us the way
the flowers bloom in spring time because then is the right time and not in a harsh winter so and for you after your life will come the spring time to your life..i thing very soon
smile and keep your self happy
March 30th, 2009 at 12:27 pm
Molly, I was feeling a little hopeless today. My problems are pretty trivial compared to yours, but after reading the comments posted previous to this, I feel uplifted to know that there are people out there who care enough to send love out to a total stranger. So even though they’re not directed at me, I’m very touched, and I hope that someone here has managed to touch your heart too. I hope for the best for you, thirteen years old was the worst year of my life, but somewhere along the way I learned to be happy about the smallest, most trivial things. Look for beauties in mundane, everyday things, and trust that God will help you to make things better.
April 5th, 2009 at 7:49 am
I am not going to waste your time telling you all the hardships that ive gone through, but believe me Ive experienced just as much tragedy as you. I am only 16. But my dear, life is not only a god given gift, it is a responsibility. Our lives are our duties. We are obligated to live with what we are handed and build something out of it. Build the world for the future. so that our children and our children’s children will not suffer as we have. Just remember forever and all time:
“Take what you get, and build it into an empire that even God may be proud of.” - Winston churchill
good luck, and may you make sure that your days are many and full of happiness.
November 11th, 2009 at 1:31 pm
First off…nice name. I really like it
Secondly, remember what you’re going through is going to strengthen your relationship with Him. The reason that He puts us through trials is to test our faith, and when we go through things that are hard he wants us to lean on Him. God will never put you through anything that you can’t handle, and remember that he does the things he does because he loves you. Give what you’ve got to God, let him guide you wherever he needs to go and remember that he knows what’s good for you. Much love <3
November 21st, 2009 at 1:45 am
The strangest thing about our lives is that we are here for the Lord but it takes a while to see it. We have so many tests to go thru and we will not pass them all. There are no coincidences! You were 13 submitting this and here I am at age 53 wondering what am I suppose to be doing with my life. You see, some of us have been there, still getting there but we wake up to see another day to figure it out and before you know it “we are doing what we’re suppose to be doing.” God still cares about you, take one day at a time and don’t think to far ahead. Do talk to God in Jesus name like he is your best friend because nomatter where you are “he has heard you.”