Dear God,
I feel weird, maybe its called guilt. My parents have on-going problems and are constantly at each other when I was younger. The thing is I didnt care. I just wanted them both to not wake up the next morning. I played them against each other and I did something terrible. Probably the worst thing I could ever do to them. I was in year 8 going onto year 9 in New Zealand. I was enrolled to go to an all girls school, Marist college but i didnt want too. I kept crying and begging her that I wanted to go to avondale college like the rest of my friends. I thought that she was just doing this to me because her life was miserable.
I was desperate so I blackmailed my father in to convinving my mother to enrol me in to the school I wanted. I was only thirteen years old and i told him that he had until the next day to convince my mum or else I will tell her that he cheated on her….for the third time.
It worked and I was so happy. I hated my parents and i didnt care. I was happy and they were miserable, now five years on I cant seem to be happy and cant shake the feelings of lonliness. I moved to Australia a few weeks into starting at my dream school. Now i hate myself- while at the same time hating my parents. Please god help me.
TC Aplen - Queensland/Australia Share:
