Dear God,
I am sorry for the mistakes I have made in my life and continue to make. 8 years ago I was kidnapped and raped, while I was 5 months pregnant. By the grace of God, yes I know you were there, I heard you, we lived. My daughter and I lived. You gave me life, twice. Not everyone gets a second chance. I did. I should have changed my life but I continue to make awful choices and I am seeing and living with the results. I beg of your forgiveness. Leslie Coleman, Costa Mesa, California/USAShare:
May 24th, 2008 at 12:01 am
My heat goes out to you…
Not only because of what you had to go through.. But becuse you feel you need forgiveness from something that is not real!
I pity you!
May 24th, 2008 at 1:49 am
@ Sarah.
Why are you assuming that God would withhold forgiveness?
May 24th, 2008 at 8:40 pm
Leslie, i understand very well what you feel but you have to think that yes, God gave you a second chance but that doesn’t mean you are perfect now. The second chance you are getting from God is about learning, therefore, you are allowed to commit mistakes. If you are aware that you are committing the same mistakes, then learn and change.
Good luck
May 31st, 2008 at 9:22 am
hello leslie,
i can’t even begin to understand the pain that you have endured. Know that God’s love for you cannot and will not change.
also, i saw that you are in costa mesa. you should check out rock harbor church. i believe you will find many other broken people their, seeking restoration and life in God.
June 4th, 2008 at 7:32 pm
WOW… I agree with the beginning of Sarah’s comment, and then DISAGREE WHOLEHEARTEDLY with the second half of her comment! Horrible!
Leslie… you are heading in the right direction sweetheart… and you are right to be thankful for the second chance. But don’t be so hard on yourself! We all make mistakes… surviving a terrible experience like that is going to be a long process. Don’t expect to be perfect. God loves you no matter what, and it is WONDERFUL that you are turning to HIM to heal. That is all you need sister…. He will get you through and bless you abundantly. in a sense, He has already started your blessings… by giving you a precious daughter. Raise her up with a love for the Lord and you will see the blessings first hand in the choices she makes. God bless you, love!
June 16th, 2008 at 5:12 am
Thank you guys for your comments. And yes Jonathan Bowden, I do know about Rock Harbor Church, I actually attend Rock Harbors sister church, Mariners.Thank you. I know that I am the road to healing,I know it. But its been 8 years and I still find myself reliving minute by minute that night. I still smell him and it makes me vomit. I am so blessed… I actually have 3 awesome children. They are healthy and beautiful.I thank God for them every day. But I still struggle. Thanks for the encouraging words of hope!!!! I know in time I will be ok,I know I will be. Im a tough cookie,but its difficult. Love you alL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
June 23rd, 2008 at 7:56 am
Only your sins needs forgiving. What you went through was NOT your fault. I was molested by my girlfriend’s older brother when I only 15 and I was kidnapped and sexually assulted when I was 33 years old. I found it much easier to forgive them than forget my ordeal, but time has erased all pain & I when I rememeber them, it’s as if they never happened. I’m not denying they happened because they did. What I am saying, is that it’s the grace & mercy of God that allows me to to forgive. Turn all your hurts & pain over to God & He will do miraculous things with them! He desires for you to live a blessed life. So trust Him & begin to live that wonderful life He has for you!
August 1st, 2008 at 11:57 am
As a man who was raped, I can offer this advice. Forgive yourself. Get therapy. Recognize and take back the beauty in your life, like it sounds you are. Rape is about power, and there’s no reason to give the man power now, daily. Take that power back. Ultimately I hope you can forgive the schmuck who committed this horrible act, not out of Christianity or faith, but for the recognition that he is an ill man making decisions that are inherently flawed by his illness. Forgive him so you can end the occupation in your head and move forward and powerfully THROUGH the victimhood, and beyond it.
fondly,
Billy