Dear God, Ryan Sneed, I’d known him for 10 years when you took him away, he was practically family. Dusty Steen, I’d known him for two years and loved his humor, depended on it somewhat to get me through the day.Cody Zitch, I’d known him for 10 years also and got a chance to talk to him the night before he hung himself from his banister, I’ll never forgive the pain he felt that cause him to leave us all to grieve. Mark Sherman, I’d known him for my whole 15 years of life, he didn’t deserve to die in that car accident, you should’ve called the drunk driver who hit him. Pearl Dollar, She’d known me before I’d known her, She was my great aunt, death of cancer… unfair disease, and the people you’ve placed on this earth called scientist who can’t cure it, I believe you should’ve taken them as well. Lindsey Nixon, I’d known her for 5 years, she was a beautiful girl, I wish she would’ve been driving safely though I believe we deserve her more than you do. Ken Buckler, he’d also known me before I was born, His wife and my mom were best friends and his oldest daughter is exactly to the day 3 years younger than my sister, and 3 months older than me. World’s greatest dad next to mine, heart attack?! I can give you 100 people who deserved to have one before him.Kelly Rochetto, I’d known her for 8 years. I wish she wouldn’t have been sitting on anyones lap or located in any vehicle without a seatbelt, I wish she could come back to see how amazingly priceless her life would be had she been in a safer car. George Grouell, 14 years of my life I’d known George …Cancer… my extended grandpa he did everything for me and my family, blessed me with more knowledge I’ll ever learn in a classroom, and you took him away. Angel on earth and In heaven. Tyler Steele, 4 years, a high school span, a college span, my best friend. You let him take his life and quit before you got a chance to fire him. I’d give anything for him back.Larry Partch, 10 years, extended family I loved him even though he was an alcoholic and I’d do anything to see him again, or better yet. Let my dad say goodbye to his own best friend, at least I got my chance.Donald (DJ) Jacobson, 4 years also, my second best friend you’ve taken away from me, those pills were no stronger than your fists, though you called him home. I wish I could have been contacted before he died, I hadn’t seen him in 3 months and the first time was in a Casket. I want him back.God, I’ve known you for my whole 16 years. They say you are the one who chooses how our lives pan out, how we live through you every day and your son died for our sins. I wish I wasn’t 16… And in the last 5 years lost 12 people. 9 of them have been under the age of 18. It’s not fair. Please quit it… choose someone else’s friends. I can’t take it anymore.
Capri, Nevada/USA Share:
April 16th, 2008 at 1:34 pm
I know that nothing I say can make the pain go away. Nothing to reverse all the crap you’ve gone through kid. But I am proud of you for choosing to stay. Because this is enough to break even the toughest redneck. I want you to know that I’m sending you love and comfort though I don’t know you and hope that you find a way to use your pain to educate others so they may not have to go through it ever. It’s irrational, these people being taken away but let it not be in vain.
Love, peace and out, brah.
April 16th, 2008 at 3:00 pm
Stay strong.
April 17th, 2008 at 12:27 am
Either god is impotent and CANT stop things or he’s immoral and WONT stop things.
Still death, whether we like or not, is part of life. Everybody dies, just a matter of when.
Keep on keepin’ on
April 17th, 2008 at 6:30 am
I know exactly how you feel. In 2 1/2 years, I knew 22 people that died. Now people had died before and after but those 2 1/2 years were miserable. Every time I was getting back on with life, another person passed. Suicides, alcohol poisoning, car accidents, trains, disease, drug overdoses, falls, etc. I was 18 at the time and I couldn’t imagine having been any younger and dealing with the same situation. I truly cared about every person who passed, some were closer than others but all had the same impact. It’s impossible to relay the pain and find comfort but you still have your life. You can make it out and look back with love for everyone and be okay. I’m 22 now and it feels like that happened in another life. I haven’t thought about the numbers in a while because my mother said to me one day “you need to stop counting, just stop counting, you’re only going to make it worse and you won’t be able move on.” She was right. I stopped counting that day and never counted again. Sure, many have passed since but thus is life. This world is a beautiful place with many people and experiences to offer. It is also one of much pain but there’s no pain like realizing the more you are losing. Find strength within yourself, your family, and your friends. Continue on.
I also learned a valuable lesson in those years. I couldn’t be friends with people who did heavy drugs, drank large amounts, lived risky lives, and were continuously depressed. Those friendships never give back and only cause pain. I can see that our stories are very similar and I can tell you that changing who I allowed to be my friend made all the difference. I had broken down and exclaimed “I’m not going to one more funeral of another person that died of a drug overdose” and I haven’t. I let those relationships go and slowly dwindle away. A few have passed since but I was no longer their friend and barely knew them anymore and I was sad but very happy for me that I didn’t have a broken heart left to mend.
April 17th, 2008 at 10:42 am
Hey,
I’m terribly sorry for your loss. Nothing anyone says can make the pain go away. I am not much older than you, and can understand your pain. I lost someone dear to me a month ago, and in my search for answers, I found this quote: “We understand death for the first time when He puts his hands upon one whom we love.” It’s totally true. But at the same time no matter who leaves our lives, we must keep living because we have a destiny to fulfill. We have to keep living because there’s people out there that will enter into our lives and we into theirs (though no one will ever replace your friend/family). These new people we will help change and they will help shape us too.
Through your pain you have to see that life still goes on. Though the memories will always stay with us, it will help us grow.
I hope you find comfort in reading these messages that people have lovingly written for you. I’m not going to say that the pain will go away because it won’t, but I do hope that you realize that there’s still a life filled with surprises and fun, waiting for you.
April 17th, 2008 at 1:25 pm
I’m so sorry sweetheart.
Nothing will make it better, but life goes on.
Everyone dies, it’s about one of the only things we all have in common. It’s inevitable.
Grieving is healthy, but don’t hold on to hurt. It will only drag you down.
Those 12 people are really lucky to have someone who cared so much.
Remember them while you are living your life to the fullest.
April 17th, 2008 at 2:02 pm
Wouldnt want to be your friend.
OOps its Gods fault, thats right.
April 18th, 2008 at 7:35 am
Hey Kid, remember you’re also someones friend. Don’t let them have to go through what you have so unfairly have had to. Try use your pain and experiences to help others. There’s nobody saying you can’t, and a whole million saying you should.
Don’t give up on life, you are someone’s precious.
April 20th, 2008 at 12:00 am
i cant beleive some of the things ppl are saying here..unfair?…youve been thru too much?….c’mon man…..stop being so scared of death….its as natural as birth…as beautiful……
ppl come, ppl go, life goes on. i’ll die one day, and so will you…thats ok…how i fill the days of my life is important…how did these friends of yours fill their days?….start to celebrate their lives and stop moaning about their deaths…
ive lost ppl and it hurts, it always does, but its insanity to think youre a ‘victim’ of losing ppl…..c,mon snap out of it…. start looking at the doughnut instead of the hole….life is good man….
everyone of those ppl would tell you right now to stop whining and start living…theyre gone, not you….
try reading the “tao te ching” or some other literature for a different perspective on death and life…
all of it, all of it, its all a beautiful cosmic dance…
peer a little behind the curtain and put an end to your fear and hurt….be peaceful kid, youre gonna live a long and happy life if you so choose….
its up to you…affirm life
April 20th, 2008 at 3:29 pm
god is not responsible for any human actions. Do people really believe god caused people to be killed in cars, commit suicide, get or lose them jobs etc??
April 20th, 2008 at 10:34 pm
i feel so sorry for you and all that you have been through.. Im 16 myself and know for a fact that i would have fallen a long time ago if i was in your position… i admire u greatly and wish you all the best for the future.. my prays are with you..
xoxo
April 22nd, 2008 at 10:52 am
Im allmost on the other side of the planet and I just want to hug you. I pray that you will find the peace that your young soul deserve. Know that the people you have lost will allways be with you and that they know how much you love them and miss them.
May 3rd, 2008 at 5:19 am
Hey, I don’t know how you feel but I guess it must be unbearable. I’ve only lost one uncle but it did hurt a lot. I can only tell you to live your life as much as you can, don’t waste time and thank God you’re alive and whole each morning. Don’t let your pain take over your life: you’ve already been through too much. Breathe, hold your head up high and go live.
Lots of love from Argentina =)
May 10th, 2008 at 5:12 am
I lost allot of friends in the eighties to AIDS. Nowadays I have learned not to get too close to people, that way when they die it doesn’t hurt as much.
May 12th, 2008 at 10:44 am
Whatever is Good; is God’s will. Whatever is bad; is man’s will.
Pain is the touchstone of spiritual healing and growth.
February 2nd, 2009 at 7:02 am
capri, the one thing you gotta know is that thinking of all these people is jus posponing your life you knew my brother and what a great person he was and i have gone through some really bad stuff in my life after he passed and i think why did heveanly father take him from me and everyone he was such a great person a better person than me and im still here we will simply never know why god took them….but one day hes gona take you too and would you want everyone you know to think about and cry over you everyday NO youll be freaken screamen from heaven for them to go out and live and enjoy life. David Sneed