Dear God,
I wanna die today.
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November 1st, 2008 at 10:09 pm
so simple & so touching. know that feeling.
November 1st, 2008 at 11:46 pm
why?
November 2nd, 2008 at 2:23 am
y?
November 2nd, 2008 at 2:32 am
What’s the point, you’ll just have to come back again and do it all over again. So start living. Ending your life doesn’t solve anything
November 2nd, 2008 at 10:25 am
Please don’t do this to yourself. Imagine all the people around you who really love you and their feelings when they find out. God gave you life and he expects you to make the most of it. The people who have had someone they love taken away from them know how I feel. Consider today as a turning point, yesterday is history, tommorrow is a mystery and today is a gift. God bless you.
November 2nd, 2008 at 4:29 pm
I’m sorry you feel this way. I know how it feels to want your life to end. I felt that way, just this week. I had the pocket knife in my hand, and put it to the vein in my wrist. I wanted to die. But, a part of me wanted to live just as much. Maybe, what’s bothering you, is something that just needs a good friend, a listening ear, and a hug to solve. Maybe it needs much more. My advice to you is, that if your relationship with God is good, to believe that he will help you. But, if it is difficult to believe, try to find someone nearby who can help you and cares enough to listen without judging. If you have none, know there are people online, who you can reach out too. They’ll offer you a shoulder. Even if it’s a virtual one.
Take care of yourself. *hug*
Be blessed.
November 2nd, 2008 at 9:53 pm
Always know that no matter how cloudy it is that the sun is always shining.Just wait for those clouds to pass and you will see the sun again.I have been down this road before and have tried to kill myself several times but that was long ago.I got help from doctors and realized it would only be a permanent solution to a temperary problem.However when being in this state of mind I could not see that but I am glad I didn’t die.I still get those thoughts and life can be so difficult at times but hold on, be strong and don’t let go.It will get better, I promise and I speak from experience.Many things can make a person want to end their life but who is to say that ending your life will end your problems or negative feelings? I don’t know you but I know you are a great person and you have a purpose in life.Don’t let anyone else tell you different or drag you down.Talk to someone, write it down and be a fighter.You can beat this and you will smile again.Maybe you are lost right now but have faith, you will find your way again.People love you and this is your life so live it and take advantage of it.
May I ask why you want to die?
November 3rd, 2008 at 4:23 am
I know the feeling, but I can´t commit suicide because of my kids and so many loving peole. I wish there was a way to sneak out of existance…
November 3rd, 2008 at 6:59 am
Dear Anonymous,
You will reborn each day, while you will die each night. Do not treat every situations like a life & death one, because you will die many times. Be alive !
November 5th, 2008 at 6:30 pm
Most asurredly I say to you he who hears My wordand believes in Him who sent Me has passed from death to life, and shall not come into judgement, but has passed from death to life.- John 5:24 and…Jesus said to her, I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die… -John 11:25,26 Now the Lord is Spirit and where the Spirit of the Lord is there is liberty-2 Corinthians 3:17 For God did not send his son into the world to condemn the world but that the world, but that the world through him might be saved. -John 3:17 Ihave been crucified with Christ;it is no longer I who lives but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the fleshI live by faith in God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.-Galations 2:20 Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man The things which God has prepaired for those who love Him.2 Corinthians
November 6th, 2008 at 1:45 am
Here’s a completely different twist -
First, it requires a belief that there’s some kind of afterlife; empirical evidence from tested mediums in laboratories gives credence to the idea. Also, there’s thousands of voice recordings purported to be from the “dimensionally challenged”, captured by thousands of people - thanks to Ghost Hunters.
All of which gives notion that there’s more to the universe than science and religion are willing to acknowledge.
Second, from what I’ve found after years of looking into “afterlife conversations” is that victims of suicide regret the decision. Across the board. All of them.
Third, it seems the deceased are intimately tied to the emotions of the living. If you think of someone who passed, boom!, you’re connected. They feel your emotional state, don’t like it when you feel sad. They always want you to get over it ASAP.
Fourth, the suicidal victims discover they are consumed by the sadness, confusion and emotional states of relatives and friends. They can’t hang up on the conversation and walk away. They’re mired in this emotional turmoil for “years”.
Now, I can’t say this is surely what happens, as I’m still piecing things together. But, having found myself in an extremely bad situation some years ago I can say this for certain: everyone is in control of their emotional condition.
There are two pools one can wallow in, self pity or happiness. It’s a personal choice.
November 6th, 2008 at 4:38 pm
I can relate 100%. I’ve felt the same way many times over the years. In my case, I’m alone, I don’t have any family or close friends. I hope that you do! If you do, please lean on them. Just finding this website tonight was nice for me because I actually felt like someone understood. And if you don’t have anyone to talk to, feel free to talk to me. I think that our happiness is out there… I’ve been trying to live in the present, but the fact that at the end of the day I feel utterly alone and unloved still hurts like hell. Talking about it helps…
November 7th, 2008 at 4:35 pm
Underlying suicidal thoughts is the assumption that death is the end of everything.
It isn’t. It isn’t the solution and it certainly isn’t the end.
God gave you the breath of life -
he created you not because he had to,
but because he wanted to, and because of His great plans for you.
Just like it was neither our choice nor effort to be born into this world, it is not our choice to end it.
God never gives us any more than we can handle.
Out of your hardship and tears will arise hope and strength.
Be strong.
God will give you the strength that you need.
God bless.
November 9th, 2008 at 5:05 am
Thought like that corrupt us. Happiness is a decision. we’ve been there, many have had days where they’ve felt that way, but every one who’s lived through it, will realise that the happy moments weren’t gone forever soon after. This has nothing to do with God. This is all bout you. Help yourself. Only you can. A decision is all it takes.
November 10th, 2008 at 12:01 am
please dont die first.. we don’t know each other yet..
November 10th, 2008 at 12:57 pm
My lovely friend . . . please pause and realize how important you are to your family and the world. Pause . . . take a breath. Just breath.
You know what, things are not what we always want them to be. I’m certainly one of the folks in the world wondering what the GODDAMN PLAN IS!! Seriously my lovely, lovely friend, just stop for a minute; just a minute. Breeth, take a breath. Stop thinking so hard. . . tear up; let go; breeth (purpose mispelling). I love you. Many people love you. Even if you’re an orfan, or absolutely alone in the world, I love you. Please. Take a minute. Contact me thru this site. I love you. Settle. Be calm. You’re a good person. Be calm. Settle. I love you.
November 17th, 2008 at 5:25 am
If you want to ask Him something at all,……. ask Him to help you change the way you are.
(worth a shot)
November 23rd, 2008 at 12:38 pm
..Give God one more day.
..Give God 15 more minutes.
..feelings lie. Feelings like suicidal thoughts shift and move and they lie. Those feelings are just that, feelings. If someone handed you a winning lotto ticket would you be suddenly happy? At least for an hour, a day, etc.? Feelings change. Life and people might have let you down and maybe devalued you to where you feel hopeless and unworthy but again, feelings lie. Sometimes it’s in the little things. When we get to a point where we’re suicidal, there may have been a lack of joy for an extended period of time and in that, we let go of gifting or enjoying ourselves in lifes simple joys. We can find ourselves totally void of the little creature comforts to our senses because the journey that led to suicidal thoughts didn’t allow us to indulge ourselves in the things others take for granted. I’ve been suicidal and I still struggle with it. I’m amazed at others and how they value themselves and I know that the answer to that is to simply start with the little things and treat ourself the way we treat others . We wouldn’t ask them to live in a day without simple pleasures . We have to learn, relearn and / or remember how to value ourself in the little things. By taking care of ourself we quietly tell ourself we’re important. We can’t wait for others to validate us because they won’t and they can’t. Pick up the bible and read God’s words..Find the promises, find one promise you want to claim and stand on that promise in faith. Start thanking God for the blessings and miracles that are coming your way as you stand on that promise in faith. As you go you can add promises. In my darkest hours when I think nobody knows I’m crying sometimes it’s just knowing that with God I’m going to be ok, somehow, someway. That’s why faith is so awesome. We don’t have to know how God is going to do it. If every hair on your head is counted by God surely your tears , your heart and this sadness are too. I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts for years. They come and they GO. Sometimes I just have to hang on for fifteen more minutes and turn it over to God. I’m still here. Sometimes 15 minutes at a time but I’m here. Hang on friend and start with one promise. God loves you and over the wires, we do too.
November 24th, 2008 at 11:54 am
I have been there. I am there. I can’t tell you anything that will make it better, just know you have a co-miserate. You never really know how people feel unless you walk the path that they have taken. The one thing I do know is: Take it one day at a time, and if that is too long, one second at a time. Util you feel better.
November 25th, 2008 at 10:08 pm
I’ve wanted to die everyday for the past year and a half of my life. Over the past eighteen months of my life I have woken-up every morning hoping that it was my last day alive because the chaos in my life sometimes seems unbearable. I could end it all myself, but that’s not how I want to be remembered and I try to always remember that no matter how bad I have it, there’s always someone out there who has it worse than me. So I try to live everyday like it’s my last, because I know someday I’ll be right. If you wanna talk about what you’ve decided to conceal in your prayer, or even about your general state of mind and emotions, you can email me, and I extend my invitation to anyone else who might also reach-out: ratts@webmail.co.za. Sometimes a fresh perspective from a stranger can make all the difference in the world. I hate my life, and myself, at times, but I still love living.
November 26th, 2008 at 5:10 pm
You’ve killed my girlfriend.
You’ve killed my Mom.
You’ve killed my dad.
You’ve killed my sister.
Why not kill me?…….
December 1st, 2008 at 8:06 pm
Who told you that God killed them? Is it the same force that wants you to lose your promise too? The Devil is a liar and he does not want you to have your rightful inheritance as a child of God. He wants you to believe that the Lord does not love you and that you were made to suffer, but, that is just not true. You were made to triumph. God must think you a stong warrior to give you this challenge. He expects that if you feel weak or that your strength is gone, to lean on Him. I cannot speak for this type of loss, but, I can say that the body of Christ doesn’t wish to lose you. Please give thought to God’s love for you, your ability to see, read, communicate, feel, cry, understand…all gifts from Him. Please give thought to your value to Him.”For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish,but, have everlasting life”. John 3:16 God Bless You.
December 1st, 2008 at 8:53 pm
There’s only one place your soul will go if you commit suicide…and it isn’t heaven. It will be an eternal hell - forever and ever and ever. So long is eternity that its more than a million million years. You will go to place of eternal fire, eternal torment and damnation. Eternal burning of the flesh, but you won’t be able to die you’ll want to but can’t. You’ll thirst but they’ll be no water to quench your thirst. So I suggest you get on your knees and cry out to our eternal Father in Heaven who sits high and looks low. Cry out to His Son Jesus Christ. Repent fo your sins. Be baptized and be born again. And LIVE!!
December 5th, 2008 at 10:23 pm
Dear Friend,
Embracing death is wonderful but please do not chase it. God will never give you more than you can handle…so use whatever to just get stronger and greater. It is your duty as a fellow child of God to stay focused and strong so that you can help other children of God…your brothers and sisters when they most need you. Our lives are all based on our Karmatic journeys and we need to accept it and strive to be our best so that we can one day truely embrace our journey…wherever God intends.
Stay spiritually strong my friend…you are already stronger than you were yesterday and the best part of your journey is yet to come…it’s now all up to you to take the 1st step towards enlightenment.
God-Bless !!
Kindest regards,
Karven Naidoo
December 6th, 2008 at 1:07 am
Dear friend, i know Karven Naidoo for many years now. Believe him. love and peace.
love and regards,
Uven Bunsee
December 8th, 2008 at 3:27 pm
/Thats how I feel tonight. I want to go home too. I just know that we have to keep going. sending you a X HUG X
December 11th, 2008 at 8:19 pm
dude do u realise how selfish you are…no matter the circumstances its not the path god made for you. its so easy to give up but if you keep going you will become a stronger person. and happiness will come your way
keep it real man!
peace.
December 13th, 2008 at 4:18 am
thing a moment on positive things and everything will be change..
December 13th, 2008 at 9:52 pm
i know how you feel. i have those kind of days alot. but i know that if i do die, i have alot of things i’m gonna miss.
don’t die. you know that there are people out there who need you as much as you need yourself. the feeling that everyone has let you down, you letting yourself down, anger, stress and so many more emotions can get you into ths. it has happened to you. but just think efore you jump off that cliff, that people need you, people care for you. and they would hate to see you die.
December 14th, 2008 at 5:16 am
you don’t know,people who are trying to help and give some stupid advice… i felt that just yesterday,i felt so suck…understanding this feeling i have to say that if u wanna do this…think about it carefully..
December 18th, 2008 at 3:20 pm
i can feel you … i felt like this 2days ago..
but i thought about ALL the people who loves me and care for me
and it would hurt them too hear that i killed my-self soooo just think twice and think
aboout all the love ones you have in your life
December 18th, 2008 at 10:32 pm
i am praying for you.
i send my love to you!
December 19th, 2008 at 7:30 pm
It feels unbearable but take a risk … a risk to be truly you. Don’t live for others … live for you. Do the thing you need the most …. look deep into your soul and grab YOU and pull yourself back. You can do it but you have to be brave. BE BRAVE. It is so worth it. I never thought I could be happy but I am … beyond my wildest dreams. And after 38 years of struggling to believe there could be more, I found it. It is simple and inside you … it is ordinary, every day happiness. Nothing special, nothing spectacular … just ordinary, everyday, deep contentment. And it is not about finding God, it is about finding you. You are absolutely perfect the way you are. Celebrate that.
January 1st, 2009 at 6:10 pm
there are two certianties in life death and taxes…knowing that death is inevitable should make you strive to achieve something in the time you must fill before your demise. do something with your life!
January 9th, 2009 at 11:38 pm
It might seem like there’s no point in living. But there isn’t any point in dying either.
Why not just live it out?
January 14th, 2009 at 6:47 pm
Keep the faith.
January 18th, 2009 at 7:42 pm
I want to die everyday, but for some reason I am still here.
January 20th, 2009 at 7:39 am
I agree with Lizzie. Celebrate who you are. Find the good things about yourself that make you feel great and run with them!! You’re beautiful…..don’t deny the rest of us your beauty…..God Bless You.
January 20th, 2009 at 7:28 pm
Dear friend,
You will not want to die unless you want to go to heaven now. Are you sure you are going to heaven? Because hell is just a terrible place with fire and beasts eating you alive yet you do not die.
“As high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His love for those who fear Him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.” Psalm 103:11,12
BELIEVE. Believe that God will forgive you if you sincerely want to change.
If you want to change, say this prayer sincerely:
Dear God,
Forgive me for ALL my sins. I am sincerely sorry for all these things. I believe that you sent Jesus to die on the cross so that my sins might be forgiven and I could call you Father and spend eternity in heaven with you. I now accept you as my Lord and my Savior. Lead me Lord. You are my boss now. Change me according to your perfect and holy will.
In Jesus name,
Amen
I guarantee you, if you say this prayer sincerely, your life will CHANGE forever. Everything will change. That’s the power of God.
February 19th, 2009 at 6:55 am
go to the children pediatric ward and see how 6 month old babies fight to live. You can do the same
March 7th, 2009 at 7:47 pm
Please don’t die. I don’t want you to. I don’t know who you are or what problems you face, but if you ask the Lord He will give you the strength to fight. I beg you to fight.
July 30th, 2009 at 8:23 pm
I don’t think that many people who are alive today have not thought about ending their own lives at one time or another. Depression is cold. I too, as lots of others have felt this way. Just like some of the others who have commented to you, baby, it will pass. God does hear you. Baby, you have a job to do. Yes, it is hard living on this earth sometimes. But - - - you’ve got to remember that you were not put here on earth - - - just for you. You were put here to do a job. Come on sweet heart, get up, dust yourself off and start another day. Don’t think about yourself, baby doll, think about others. Why were you put here? What job are you suppose to be doing? Love, Your Sister, Edna
August 8th, 2009 at 9:37 am
I hope God hears that so this person finds what is looking for.
hey People! if somebody wants to die, let it be. God’s the only one who can give and take a life. If he doesn’t want a person to die, no matter the pills, poison etc…will survive,cause god wants to.
August 23rd, 2009 at 4:33 pm
Go ahead. I’ll follow you. I know the feeling and in fact I signed on to this site because of the words DEAR GOD PLEASE HELP ME and suicidal tendancies. I came across your short yet concise message and was astonished to see it was in the Philippines where I live. Life is so unfair and yet me make all our own situations. I’m going to tell you you’re going to hell because I’ve done the research and talked to a Priest. The Catholic says that since I confessed my decision to kill myself first than I am already forgiven and likewise the Protestant view is that ALL sin is forgiven and I asked forgiveness in advance. Biblically we must REPENT of the sin once we are forgiven or the foregiveness is abandoned. Since we can only kill ourselves once, I guess there is no chance of repeating that mistake. I know loss and guilt and shame and evil and as well as beauty and goodness and love and hate and despair and so on but once the mechanisms in place to keep us from letting the pain over burden us we are okay. In my case, as maybe in yours, the pain outweighs the peaceful places in our minds and hearts and lives. I carry such a guilt and shame and regret for so much in my life and have very little hope. There are good things in my life such as my children and my wife but sometimes the enemy, whether the entity or simply my ‘insides’, seem to grasp me and not want to let go. I’ve tried, as I’m sure you have, to wake up everyday and claim that this is a new start but something always remains in the shadows waiting for me to breathe my last. I cannot really console you or tell you not to or give you hope or reach out to your pleas if that’s what this is, because, I agree…….I will wait another day and hope this evening takes away those shadows and tomorrow the sunlight is bright enough to take away the shadows but for now I have even little hope for that. Sorry if this makes things worse but I would rather tell you the truth and my feelings than trying to play pastor or priest or counselor or freind. Maybe its fate or kismet or destiny or empathy, who knows? But if you decide to take your own life it is your own life to take. Created by God but abused and wasted by our own selves whether intentionally or not, right? I mean if we made all the RIGHT decisions we wouldn’t even be on this site. Take care and maybe, see you on the other side….I’ll bring the ice…………………….
August 23rd, 2009 at 5:15 pm
Go ahead. I’ll follow you. I know the feeling and in fact I signed on to this site because of the words DEAR GOD PLEASE HELP ME and suicidal tendancies. I came across your short yet concise message and was astonished to see it was in the Philippines where I live. Life is so unfair and yet me make all our own situations. I’m going to tell you you’re NOT going to hell because I’ve done the research and talked to a Priest. The Catholic says that since I confessed my decision to kill myself first than I am already forgiven and likewise the Protestant view is that ALL sin is forgiven and I asked forgiveness in advance. Biblically we must REPENT of the sin once we are forgiven or the foregiveness is abandoned. Since we can only kill ourselves once, I guess there is no chance of repeating that mistake. I know loss and guilt and shame and evil and as well as beauty and goodness and love and hate and despair and so on but once the mechanisms in place to keep us from letting the pain over burden us we are okay. In my case, as maybe in yours, the pain outweighs the peaceful places in our minds and hearts and lives. I carry such a guilt and shame and regret for so much in my life and have very little hope. There are good things in my life such as my children and my wife but sometimes the enemy, whether the entity or simply my ‘insides’, seem to grasp me and not want to let go. I’ve tried, as I’m sure you have, to wake up everyday and claim that this is a new start but something always remains in the shadows waiting for me to breathe my last. I cannot really console you or tell you not to or give you hope or reach out to your pleas if that’s what this is, because, I agree…….I will wait another day and hope this evening takes away those shadows and tomorrow the sunlight is bright enough to take away the shadows but for now I have even little hope for that. Sorry if this makes things worse but I would rather tell you the truth and my feelings than trying to play pastor or priest or counselor or freind. Maybe its fate or kismet or destiny or empathy, who knows? But if you decide to take your own life it is your own life to take. Created by God but abused and wasted by our own selves whether intentionally or not, right? I mean if we made all the RIGHT decisions we wouldn’t even be on this site. Take care and maybe, see you on the other side….I’ll bring the ice…………………….
November 9th, 2009 at 11:31 am
i dare you