Dear God,
Here I am yet again and all my problems are eating me up. I am a mother, a sister, a student and I have so many dreams that I want to achieve but each time I try to call unto you, you are always miles away from me, each time I try to be a better person, something terrible comes knocking into my life and I feel like you are to blame. I am not saying that you are a BAD person but I do not understand why you make me suffer so much. Each time I try to be resilient you through me out and you put more and more pressure on me. I tried night and day to pray so that you can at least make just one day better for me, yet my prayers are always in vain. I feel like you operate in favoritism and some of us you have discarded away and thrown at the deep end. Last week, we were told to pack our bags and go and yet we did not have a place to stay. It was really bad, today I sit and write this and I still do not know where I will put my head down, I am counting the hours and I try to be hopeful and pray that my guardian angels will come and rescue me, I have been running up and down neglecting all my varsity work in order to look for a place and I simply can not find it, I have tried to long to be strong, yet no help comes my way, I sleep in libraries and try to concentrate and my parents who are miles away from me are all worried sick and I always think about the baby that I have brought into this world and how stupid I was to do the one thing that I never thought that I would do and today I am crying, Yes I do feel like I am a fool like somebody who does not deserve good things in life, i always wonder what it is that I have done to you that was so bad that you put me through all these things and pains, I am trying so hard to give everything my best shot and I do not know what else to do. This life has not been good to me, these tears I cry are just too much to bear and I feel like I am not deserving anymore. I have no place to sleep, no one to talk too and the world keeps laughing at me, everybody just looks at me funny and they think that I am a little bit crazy, how can I not be!! I have so many dreams and I want to run away from poverty but each time I try it doesnot work. I want the best for my baby and I only have a year to go at university yet I feel like I maybe denied that chance, I am thinkng of going around to companies so that they can sponsor me and I will do whatever that I can to pass and graduate. I want to pull my mother, father and sisters out of the poverty trap but it is not easy, If you were listening please help me out, Just this one time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tashy Pearl -South AfricaShare:
August 7th, 2008 at 12:48 am
Dear Tashy Pearl,
I admire your strenght and your determination. I admire that despite all the sufferinng you are going through, you have the power to hope, learn, fight and move on.
But please understand, God does not want you, your baby, your parents, and neither half of the planet who i in deep suffering to go through this. The gouvernment, all the power addicts, and who is in control, they are to blame.
He cannot make a big miracle to save everybody, He cannot change this world that we created. But He can work with every person individually.
We all have a chance to be happy, in every situation we could be. It’s just that we have to fight the feelings we have (we have to fight our own person, our limits, our fears, our emotions), and start thinking with our head, not with our heart.
I know what it means not to have a person to talk to, to understand you. It’s not that it doesn’t exist, it’s just that we haven’t find it yet..
I also understand what it means for somebody to tell me about things they probabily dont know. What you’re going through it’s you, your life, I have no right to tell you what to do. It’s that at a commons sense, that fear, love, hope, sadness, happiness, has a common “taste” for everyone.
Just.. hang in there, and everything is going to be alright if you continue believing, learning, fighting, hoping !
August 7th, 2008 at 1:22 pm
fear not for i am with you, even until the ends of the earth.
sometimes, more often than not, we don’t understand the things God puts us through or why he does (or why they last so long) but he will get you through this, trust me, just hang in there (for your family, for your baby, and for yourself) and things will work out.
you’ve worked so hard for so long…. don’t give up now!
August 11th, 2008 at 4:19 am
all i have to say is that you must believe that “this, too, will pass” whether it is goood or bad! i knw that this is not what you want to hear but believe me when i say that no prayer Ever goes in vain, Ever and oneday you will look back and be thankful…live for the moment, in the moment, i hope this helps and that you never give up!!!
August 12th, 2008 at 4:20 am
hi tashy pearl
i just want to say that i completely understand what u are going thru in most days of ma life ifeel the same that i have noone in the world that some how everyone lives better lives than me not neccesarily money and good things but simply happiness and alittle help some time when they need it as i write to u right now i also have no place to sleep and im feeling so warn out by all these issues that seem to be chossing to occur to only me. but what i can say and keep telling my self is that got has not forgot and when yuo feel that its too dark in ur path you must know that dawn is upon u and one guy once said these words to me and they always comfort me :”if u feel that u are going thru hell then keep going cuz if you give up then you will remain in hell forever, but if u keep moving then u are makimg adiiference little asit may seem to u then.”
cheers and hoping get resolution to some of ur troubles.
August 16th, 2008 at 11:20 am
hi,you know they say God’s delays is not God’s denial,it will happen to you.You know i’ve learned that whenever i’m in the worse situation i must forget 4 a moment abt my situation and think of those who are in worse situation then mine,and i also learned that when you doubt God’s love think of all the good things he has done……he’s faithful all the time,he may seem to be far sometimes but as for me i know he knows your needs and he had called you a women of excellence….God is with you….Just trust in him you will not go wrong i promise……..my friend the other day she asked me what do you do if you don’t even feel like praying you know i said i talk,yes i talk to God and tell him what i feel,so Talk to him he’s listening………May he’s favour be upon u and your family………God loves you
August 16th, 2008 at 8:08 pm
And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disapoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the holy spirit who was given to us.
Whatever you are going through its just seasonal, God is not caught by surprise that you are going through all of this. God has a plan worked just for you, He loves you so much that He wants you happy, just be strong in the Lord and the power of his might, He is able to deliver you out of your situation in Jesus name!!!
August 21st, 2008 at 12:48 am
my heart goes out to you Lovely Pearl. Everybody deserves a home and a life that is at the very least reasonable.
I too have been homeless, poor, wandering alone, wondering why God brought me so low when I worked so hard and tried so valiantly.
But then He lifted me up again, and He will you too, and I will pray He does soon, with all my heart.
You are a brave and wonderful woman, I can hear that, and you are not alone, God and my prayers are with you and Blessed is she who comes in the name of God, and your prayers WILL be answered and you WILL be blessed.
August 30th, 2008 at 11:16 am
Dear Pearl,
Please know that someone a world away is sending you love and prayers.
Jessica
September 4th, 2008 at 10:03 pm
I believe that everything happens for a reason, and something really wonderful must come out of what you’re going through! Please don’t give up, I hope that things get much easier for you.
September 30th, 2008 at 1:53 am
Hi Pearl
I would love to help you if possible. Where in South Africa do you stay? I am in the JHB area and try help people start their own business’
Unfortunately its a very busy time for me but I thought I would contact you anyway. Please send me an e-mail with your details and possibly we could meet and see if we can work on something together. I’m not sure if I can help you but I felt that I must at least try contact you.
My e-mail is 21interconnections@gmail.com
Jess
P.s. The hotter the fire the more precious gold
October 22nd, 2008 at 2:11 pm
Footprints in the Sand…God is always carrying youthrough bad times..You wouldn’t be able to communicate in this manner… if it wasn’t for god..Believe! It will all get better in time!
November 21st, 2008 at 1:42 pm
Perseverance during suffering, and faith in God, will eventually bring rewards. A man told me one time that when it feels like God is soooooooo far away and it seems that he is not speaking in to your life, that he is right up in your face waiting for you to realize that he has been there the whole time.
December 30th, 2008 at 9:41 pm
I admire your determination for wanting to get ahead in life, many in the US refuse to go to college even though they qualify for a 100% free education and many like you would give anything to have that opportunity. In regards to your situation I don’t know if you attend a christian church, I know that he gospel has expanded and there is Godly people everywhere, I encourage you to look for shelter and help
among christians in your area. If you attend a christian church it is like having a second family. Don’t blame God, many of our situations are because we have refused to do his Wiill. The Bible says that because of our ansestors many of us carry curses, I know that Africa as well as many other countries the people practice witchcraft and worship idols and this brings condemnation to us and curses. The Bible says in 2 chronicals 7:14 If my people which are called by my name shall humble themselves, and seek my face and turn from there wicked ways I will heal there land. I have read testimonies of people who came together and repented and seeked Gods face and He literally healed there land. I met a pastor from Africa I wish I coud give you his number the Lord is using him greatly to spread the word of God in Uganda and other parts of Africa. Who know how he will use you…Keep going foreward and give your life completley to Christ. Life is not easy .
January 20th, 2009 at 7:26 am
Hello Tashy Pearl,
GOD LOVES YOU!! I promise you, HE will NEVER put more on you than you can bear. We are all strong, spritual individuals who have been placed here to endure, to experience, to love one another and to spread God’s message. God created you. He didn’t create you to fail, to be in pain or poverty. Everything you need to succeed….is within you. I learned this in a somewhat similar way that you will. God will give us our hearts desires. All we need to do is ask, and believe that we have it when we ask. It will not come when you want it, not in your time, but it will come in God’s time. Just let go and believe that God can do the things that you’ve asked Him to do and I PROMISE you they will come to pass. God bless you and your family. I will pray for you as well.
January 21st, 2009 at 1:37 am
dont give up my dear,if only your in cag. de oro city my place maybe i could help to endrosed in DSWD, however my advie ask someone who able to give idea where some “NGO”- any foudation will be, they will help you, in one of thie program,ask to be your be one of the benificiaries . then got go to govt agency like Dept of social welfare- office of the mayor whatever, im sure they can help you also, they are some course- 4yrs or short course that are offer in the govt. that are free tituion in govt school . please inqiuire for that.
you know what, the famous wolrd boxing now a days is manny pacquio, from phil, he ddnt deny he was come from very poor family but because of his strong determintation and maybe prayers( coz every time he had fight he prayed in the ring) that why he didnt lose.and now the richest people maybe i the world( fmaous ones) so what im saying to let poverty thinks that yopu never become sucessful ones.
my dear include, hope to hear one day..informing me that you made it.
April 3rd, 2009 at 4:21 pm
Hi Angel
God knows your every thought he knows you can make it and he knows your one of his strongest women. God loves you and believes in you so why you not believe in he who believes so much in you.. He gave you a big huge brain i live in US and i could never make it through University i am so stupid you should thank God for your brains. Never loose sight of the love you have for yourself firstly and u child and u family. Enjoy these days coz one day you are going to miss them. God has a road for you and you are breaking the chain for generations in your family so be proud and take every day as it comes and no more. If you need help just ask for it ask everyone you see for a roof over your head i wish i could help you but i am not there. Be kind and be careful who you ask make sure it is safe that all. U have came this far dont turn away now the road is getting wider and easier but u cant see beyond where u are. Love U coz i felt your heart.
Noreen
Dreaming is free close your eyes and dream………….
April 6th, 2009 at 5:00 am
LOOK TO GOD as in Jesus
ill pray for you
July 30th, 2009 at 9:05 pm
My prayer to God for you is to please give you a warm bed to sleep in and peace of mind. I wish that I could help you. Love, Your Sister In Christ, Edna
August 1st, 2009 at 10:15 pm
everdearest God,
i hope everyone of us here will be the source to of comfort to one another, hope their messages will strengthened each one of us. Hope that you will guide us and please be our friend.
September 7th, 2009 at 10:24 am
Dear,
First, let me admire you for the strength you have, sometimes you and other people there are telling me that hope and love still exist, and thanks for giving me that to me, because in this times people are sleep and don’t hope, don’t believe, don’t love.
The only thing that I dare to say to you is: You have to thrust you have to stiil fighting ( and I am daring to say it, cuz i don’t even try sometimes ), you have to still loving with all of your heart and send that message to the world, believe in what you believe always if it is for love. I will pray for you with all of my heart, all of it, and please know that the only god we have in this planet is love !.
Fabio ?.