Dear God,
Please help me to see clearly. Help me to understand where to place the puzzle pieces which are my life. I desire love, passion, contentment, and peace. I’m working daily on experiencing these things on a practical level.
But it’s like there are two things at work…my higher spiritual self, who knows just how to perceive a situation so that I can bear to go through it, and then there is the seat of my wounded soul. It is lonely, afraid, insecure, angry, hurt, and empty. This is the space that I need you to fill. I need your help, your comfort. Please show me how to live. What to do. I’m lost. AD - Ohio/USAShare:
November 25th, 2008 at 9:27 pm
Here’s a short story that might put you on a right track :
To a disciple who was always at his prayers the Master said, “When will you stop leaning on God and stand on your own two feet”?
The disciple was astonished. “But you are the one who taught us to look on God as Father”!
“When will you learn that a father isn’t someone you can lean on but someone who rids you of your tendency to lean”?
MORSEL:
All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen.
And another one :
One disciple said:
“I have no idea of what tomorrow will bring, so I wish to prepare for it”.
The master answered:
“You fear tomorrow - not realizing that yesterday is just as dangerous”.
MORSEL:
Don’t let yesterday use up too much of today
One more:
“Please tell me, is salvation obtained through action or through meditation”?
“Through neither. Salvation comes from seeing”.
“Seeing what”?
“That the gold necklace you wish to acquire is hanging round your neck. That the snake you are so frightened of is only a rope on the ground”.
MORSEL:
All That Is - is the result of what we have thought.
Take care, brother !
November 25th, 2008 at 10:26 pm
Don’t go alone on your way, enter a Christian community where to grow up in spiritual life, be healed and leaded, and wher to share your gifts. Otherwise you will bend more and more on yourself and you will have the impression that the darkness swallow you. But it is just an impression: God winned the world! Ahead, brother! Look for a holy company!
November 25th, 2008 at 10:57 pm
Hey AD - I felt exactly as you do for the longest time. When I got to a point that I could stand it no longer I sot out therapy. The first one I went to made me actually feel worse and I wanted to give up, but a friend encouraged me to pray about it and look again…which I did. I found a kind and compasionate man who has taught me to change the way I look at things, the way I react/respond to others. He has taught me to pray more positively. Not seeking things, but seeking God. Not complaining, but giving thanks. In doing so, I stopped a very bad habit I had…self-pity. I started looking for the good in my life rather than concentrating on the bad. Seeing the good in others instead of concentrating on how they have hurt me. My life has changed so much, but that is the great thing…it’s my attitude that has changed the most. I am no longer the victim, but the victor. I don’t know you, so I don’t know if your situation is the same, but I do know one thing for sure…God loves you and he wants you to be happy. Seek Him and happiness will come to you. Thank Him for the good things you have and more good will come to you.
XO
November 27th, 2008 at 4:38 am
I woke this morning in a great mood. Even though I am losing my job shortly and still have so many questions for God. But then something happened and turned the day around and made me so angry. I walked into the kitchen where my son forgot to turn the gas stove off while burning an empty pan and screamed. At that moment I turned to my 3 teen children and said I should make a web site for people to send their prayers to God. I sat down at the computer and typed in, ” DEAR GOD”. And this web site popped up. Thank you to the wonderful people or person who thought of this before me. God does love us every day even were down and think that life couldn’t get any better. Thank God for time outs even for adults. God has so many great things in store for us. We just need to keep our faith.
November 27th, 2008 at 7:57 pm
Be strong, keep believing, everything is going to be fine, just wait, be patience and don’t try to push God, everything´s eventually going to settle down, the more you push the harder it gets. remember it doesn’t matter how many times you fall, but the strength when you get up.
Feel the love around you, and make everything for a purpose.
I’ll pray for you
November 29th, 2008 at 11:54 am
I was just praying for answers in my life. I then googled dear god and I found this web site. It is good to know that Iam not alone.I thank God for leading me to this web site.God Bless.
December 15th, 2008 at 7:35 am
I will pray for you and think positive everything else (in the past) is history. Sometimes we have to feel pain to feel and understand joy.
have a great day!
January 28th, 2009 at 10:29 am
Great! Thank you!
I always wanted to write in my blog something like that. Can I take part of your post to my site?
Of course, I will add backlink?
Sincerely, Your Reader
February 22nd, 2009 at 9:13 pm
My dear AD,
Thank you! Thank you for your bravery - exposing our innermost feelings is an act that is fraught with danger, yet you courageously faced that fear and took the first valiant step towards resolving the issues which plague you with doubts.
Thank you also for being the person that you are - from the few words that you wrote I perceive you to be an intelligent, vivacious, sweet, compassionate person, and as such you make the world a better place for everyone. I feel sure that in your humility you feel that these traits are standard, but please believe me when I say that they make you an exceptionally wonderful person, and I for one would like to take the time to express my gratitude for everything that you are.
I would also like you to know that I feel that the answer to your questions lies in part in the acknowledgements that you made; when you wrote “I desire love, passion, contentment, and peace”, I noted that all of these things that you desire can be found within yourself, and the key to happiness is always within ourselves. That you have the foresight to understand that external, tangible things are not the most worthy focus for your life, you have already empowered yourself to be happy, though it appears that you are currently experiencing some doubts.
I would like to congratulate you on your goals, and I would suggest that rather than being a barrier to your goals, your doubts are in fact proof that you are on the right path to achieving your goals! Our doubts make us stronger, for when we overcome them we know we are closer to our objectives, though we need to perceive these doubts as challenges and not as impassible constraints. And when you wrote “I’m working daily on experiencing these things on a practical level”, you already acknowledged that you understand that these goals are achievable, and that it is your responsibility to achieve them, AND that you have accepted the challenge, and you are working towards your goals. Kudos to you for your perception and awareness, and for the strength to follow your desires!
My impression is that your ‘higher spiritual self’ will lead you to your goals, though at times you will be distracted by the pain you carry in your ‘wounded soul’. Your doubts (in the forms of loneliness, fear, insecurity, anger and hurt) cannot keep you from achieving happiness and contentment; in the end, the only thing they will accomplish will be to further the enlightenment you experience when you reach your target.
You probably noticed that the last paragraph omitted the ‘emptiness’ that you profess to feel in your soul, and this was a deliberate intention on my behalf. The reason for this is that of all of the thousands of people I have met in my lifetime, I suspect that your soul is one of the ones that is so full of loving kindness, that ‘emptiness’ cannot possibly be one of its true traits. My inclination is that you perceive that there is something missing from your life, and it weighs on your heart; but this is not a ‘lack’ in your soul, rather it is an artificial space that your mind has created to give voice to your desire to have whatever it is you feel you are missing. I would humbly suggest that you see it for what it truly is; a desire that you have yet to recognize, and therefore pursue. Replace the emptiness with the desire to achieve whatever you feel is missing from your life, for in doing so you empower yourself to achieve your objectives.
OK, so assuming this incredibly long treatise hasn’t bored and/or alienated you, and you are still reading (hehehe), please allow me to make one more suggestion as I know you are smart enough and strong enough to assimilate or dismiss my ideas as you see fit. You have expressed your doubts, and you have intimated that you are having some difficulty in overcoming these doubts on your own, so I would therefore suggest that you carefully select one or two true friends with whom to discuss your feelings. I know that this can be difficult, but you have already shown the strength you have by opening up your heart in this forum.
Remember, your true friends will cherish the idea of helping you through this difficult period in your life, because they WANT to know you better and to be closer to you! Please don’t feel that you will be an imposition on them, because the opposite is true; giving somebody the opportunity to help someone that they care for is a gift that both of you can benefit from. Wouldn’t you yourself feel better knowing that one of your friends felt comfortable enough to open up to you? Then isn’t it logical that they would feel the same now the situation is reversed?
If you don’t feel comfortable opening up to a friend and would prefer speaking to a professional instead, I would suggest that you find a good behavioral therapist (think of him or her as a ‘counselor’ if you find the title ‘therapist’ unpalatable). But either way, please seek someone worthy to help you to carry your burden, and to overcome your (temporary) doubts. Please also know that I wish you the very best in all of your endeavors, as I KNOW that you are deserving of all that you desire, and of all of the good things in life. Good luck in your quest, and I hope you soon find what you want and what you need.