Dear God,
I have a twin brother.
Two weeks after I left for college you tried to take him from me. You let his car spin out on the high way, right into a tractor trailer. You let him stay there, trapped in a car crumpled like paper beneath a semi’s underbelly, for an hour. You let my parents wonder if they still had two children. You let me regret going out of state for school, for leaving my family. You let him go through surgery, casts, pins, tests, scans, probes, pills and hospitals. You let us all wonder if my brother’s dreams of college would come true, never mind if he would ever reach the skies in the Air Force. And that God, did not satisfy your demented agenda.
You let us think everything would be alright. You let us know the bones could heal, the schooling could happen, and the dreams could still fly. Then you let the bump grow. Right then, in the midst of cleaning up the wreckage of our four lives – especially my brother’s, my only brother’s, my better half, my best friend, my soul mate – you let the tumor you’d been hiding for years as well . The tumor is on the left side of his brain. It has to come out. Soon, God, you will let him go to the hospital again, to be sliced open again, to have metal replace bone again. God you had your chance already and didn’t take my twin brother away, you cannot change your mind now. A - Ohio/USAShare:
November 7th, 2008 at 5:24 pm
A, you have a special heart which is fitting for you are a special soul. I won’t pretend to try to ease your pain or your fears through God, because you know how I feel on that.
All I can promise is that, for as long as you know me, and as long as there is breath inside of me, I’m here for you. Never forget that
November 7th, 2008 at 6:51 pm
I cannot even begin to imagine what YOU must be going through, let alone your whole family.
I almost lost my best friend when i was 13 years old to a drunk driver, but thankfully the scars have faded.
But for you, this is a painful time.
I just hope, and I will pray, that your brothers tumour comes out succssfully, and that he can still fly. Hopefully, this will be the worst part of his life, and all of his dreams will come true.
Please, don’t be guilty. It’s not your fault, you are a victim in this too.
I am not religious, but I do trust that God will help you through these hard times. If he can’t save him, he will help you heal the pain.
I give all my love and hope.
November 10th, 2008 at 1:15 pm
A, you are such a strong soul. I’m sorry about your twin. I cannot imagine what it must be like for you to lose the “other side of yourself”. I’m sure that God must have a plan. I’m not an especially strong believer in “God”, but, twins are a very special “species” in this world. I give you my love, for whatever that’s worth. My thoughts are with you and I wish you and your family the very best wishes for healing, in all ways. I send my love to you and to your family. Take very, very good care.
November 10th, 2008 at 2:56 pm
God, is suffuering in your twin brother also . He is also sad beacuse your are sad. He is inside him and you, giving you reasons for living.God did not plan anything . God do not use the people as marionete. God give us freedom, he respects the world and what happends on it. He is just moving us to give love and hope to the people who really suffers, and in this case, i think you should give all support to your twin brother, thats our mission in this live . to love and serve others.
November 10th, 2008 at 2:58 pm
God is inside your heart. Listen him.
November 13th, 2008 at 5:26 am
A,
I am so sorry for the pain you’ve experience because of your brother’s accidents. I have a younger brother. He was born when I was eight years old and I helped raise him. I love him more than I love myself, and I would be devastated and completely lost if something happened to him. I can’t say I completely understand where you’re coming from, but I do sympathise.
Still, please -please- understand that God isn’t out to get you or your brother. He has no “demented” agenda for any human, because he loves us. “‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future’” (Jeremiah 29:11). I know you probably don’t want to hear that, and I am truly sorry, but please understand that, without exception, God is always good, and Satan is always bad. Satan wants to destroy dreams, lives, and families, not God.
I am going to pray for you. Please accept it, because even though I don’t know you, I still care about your suffering.
November 14th, 2008 at 4:20 pm
Jesus Fucking Christ. I’m crying.
November 15th, 2008 at 1:40 am
“God works in mysterious ways”
There are some things we don’t understand and then there are some things that just seem to fit together. For instance, your brother’s tumor. Would have they found your brother’s tumor if he hadn’t been in that accident? I’m sure God didn’t intend to cause so much hurt. I admire you for your love for your brother, and I am sorry for what you guys have gone through. I know that i have had my fair shares of “why God??” but I have faith in him. God is Love.
take care & God bless,
-Travis
November 19th, 2008 at 2:27 pm
Dear A , Are they sure it’s not a hemotoma , I think thats how it’s spelled. My 3 year old daughter fell out of a car on a highway,
She developed a lump on her scull. It was like a giant blood blister that developes from an impact. it took 3 years to fully disolve and go away but it did. Praying for your brother I hope thats what it is. God bless.
December 1st, 2008 at 7:49 pm
“In the beginning God created the heavens and the Earth.” This is the first line of the Bible, and essentially the hardest and most necessary statement in the Bible for everyone to believe. Without belief in this statement, none of the rest of the Bible can be assumed to be true.
I can tell by the letter that you have written here, that you wish for proof of God’s will for you and your brother’s life. It is true that God did not make us to suffer, but, if we believe the very first words in the Bible, we know that we are made by God. Wecare not our own creators. We are the clay, He is the potter, therefore the clay cannot say to the potter, “What will you make me?”. The potter has the discretion on what the clay becomes. The potter decides how much fire the clay needs to become the vessel that He intended. This experience is fire for you and your whole family, meant to refine your strength, faith, and belief.
Instead of saying to God, “Why did you cause an accident to hurt my brother?”, say instead:
“Thank you God for the mercy you have shown to my brother, myself, and my family in allowing us to have this time with him.Thank you for making our faith strong enough to see us through this obstacle that Satan has placed in our way to prevent us from closeness to you. Thank you for victory over the worldly. Thank you for creating us in the image of yourself and placing us in such high regard in your heart that we count this challenge a blessing for your name’s sake. Guide us though these times with your gentle and loving hand. Keep us protected from the enemy with your grace. Thank you Father God for hearing our prayers and for loving us so. In Jesus name, Amen.”
Please be encouraged in knowing that the entire world, even the things we ,feel are in our hands, are in God’s hands. This includes you, your brother, your family, even me, the stranger. I will keep you in my prayers and I hope that you will keep me in yours. I pray that your faith is strengthened by these trials and that peace follows you the remainder of your days. God bless!
Ayoka
December 5th, 2008 at 3:49 pm
I get it..your hurting, feeling helpless and lashing out and the one thing in life that has the power to change, heal and create. How can a God so wonderful..so powerful..not look down at your family and ACT and when those actions don’t come quickly or at all..then we turn to hate, bitterness and disinlusionment. It is okay..God has big shoulders and can take it.
A real being was cast out of heaven..with more venom, hate and bitterness then we can even imagine. He looks to God and anything God created with equal venom and hate. He comes to kill, steal and destroy.
God then created a free willed and free thinking creation to impart all His wisdom and love into. A perfect creation built never to die but to commune with God always. God imparted love, teaching and training to these 2 perfect people, and told them to guard the garden and to guard themselves against their own desires of greatness..don’t eat of the tree. First they let the enemy in the garden and then believed the enemy because they could only be tricked by what they really already had been tempted by within themselves. We always want the one thing we can’t have..or is good for us. So, the enemy came in and took out the perfect world and with it came sickness, death and pain.
So God acting in love and compassion sent His own Son as a pathway back to glory by defeating death itself. Jesus also left instructions on how to overcome all the things that the devil imparted into the world when creation fell.
Now I wouldn’t hand my son a socket and a mechanic book and expect him to overhaul my engine the next day by becoming a master mechanic handling any mechanical equipment after reading one manual. No, takes years of practice, trail and error, trust in the instructor and constant perfecting ones craft with years of continued study and learning. God has patience, but expects us to keep seeking Him..even when life fails and trials over whelm us..for this walk on this death flled world takes perfecting in Christ.
Trust me..I know it is easier to blame then to believe. It is easier to hate then to hope. It is easier to fail then to have faith. We can’t escape the reality of death, I was 19 when my husband died and know about bitterness and I used that to fuel selfishness and justify my own actions for a long time. At the end of my life..if the only gift Jesus ever gave me was salvation, a chance to live in perfect glory forever..would I grumble and accuse God of not doing enough…or would I say thank you. My husband was born again a week before he died. I can now thank God he is with him. It hurt..and now 30 years later I have suffered many hurts and anguishes of this life..and what legacy am I leaving for others to see..is it hope…or hate.
December 10th, 2008 at 6:35 am
A,
God let that car accident happen so that the tumor would be found.
It wouldn’t have been found and your brother would have died.
“YOU WILL NOT DIE BUT LIVE”
THAT is the heart of God.
December 13th, 2008 at 4:19 am
Kill him and everithing will be ok ..
December 15th, 2008 at 7:28 pm
maybe God isn’t the one that is trying to take your brother from you, maybe He’s the one trying to keep him with you. maybe God wasn’t the one that made your brother’s car spin out on the highway nor the tumor that they found . maybe God is the doctors that are trying to save his life. I hope that God is able to work through those doctors’ hands and help your brother through this. I hope also that God is able to help YOU through this.
December 17th, 2008 at 5:32 am
God is LOVE. how can you think he wanted to take him with him?
it just makes you mad at him:(
February 5th, 2009 at 5:05 am
If gOD was real - why would we need doctors in the first place? or anything - for that matter - other than priests and churches?
That being said - I DO hope that the accident made way for the tumor to be discovered and that SCIENCE and MEDICINE and a healthy diet and exercise allow your brother to survive and live the life I presume he deserves. Dont waste your time praying.
Pray in one hand, shit in the other - see which one fills up first.
February 10th, 2009 at 5:06 am
I have a twin also and was in a bad car wreck when I was 23. I am so grateful for her she saved me from myself so many times and pray you will always have your twin with you. Be strong.
Love,
Rhonda
February 10th, 2009 at 5:25 am
A, even though you may think that God is putting him through all of his just because, he is not. He did get in that car accident to find the tumor and God will get you all through this. Your twin will make it through this too. You’re in my prayers.
March 8th, 2009 at 4:29 pm
Your brother will make it through this, as will you. Always be thankful you have him. Always thank the Lord for letting him live. You will both be in my prayers.