Dear God,
I am 37 years old today. I have been fighting all my life just to be me. Today I am in terrible pain. My body doesn’t want to carry me anymore. I feel strange talking to you because you always seemed so far away from me all these years. All these years I have been so unlucky, so miserable and so alone in the darkness. I am told to turn back to you now. To look for the light. All I want is to be able to function again. Walk, run, drive, travel. I never realized how happy I was just with the simple things in life. Be able to stand up in the morning, go to the pool, have sex with beautiful women, work, earn my life. I want my life back. This is my prayer.
Alain, Belgium, BrusselsShare:
May 15th, 2008 at 3:50 am
thinking about you
May 17th, 2008 at 6:24 am
Praying for you
May 17th, 2008 at 8:37 pm
bad things dont make everything else bad.. they make the good things seem better. enjoy even simpler things that make life joyfull nad peace full. dont try to get your life back create a new one. inspire love laugh cherish sing. stare up at the stars and clouds. blog ur troubles away. read and dream and sleep and talk and listen.
be thankfull… in actaull fact you are experiencing a wonderfull thing
i know i would feel lost and sad in ur position but i hope you can learn to accept it and come out of it strong.
my thoughts be with you always
May 19th, 2008 at 10:24 pm
you can do it man : D
that took a lot of courage to write, just apply it and keep chuggin on
peace and <3
May 20th, 2008 at 8:35 am
Alain, for what you know, the whole universe exists because you can see it, smell it, listen to it, imagine it or whatever. Because you exist. If you weren’t here, neither would anything be. Become glad just for being concious. Don’t feel pain, embrace it, accept it as you are the witness of it all.
Nothing you have here will you carry when you go, not even a single memory. Enjoy this moment, for it won’t last forever. Every single second of life is beautifull, because everything is God, even pain, fear and death. We humans can’t accept the fact that what happens here, stays here. We have the abillity to be aware of our existence and we want it to last forever, and that’s the start for all our pain. Get free of everything, including yourself. Only then you’ll become free, happy, joyfull and full of love. Live for the others, forgive, love, help, disolve in the whole universe and understand that you make the world go round, because you are everything.
Try to meditate, to pray or whatever you feel that helps you connect with you innerself, your honest you
thank you
Juan
June 23rd, 2008 at 8:28 am
God allows things to happen for a reason. We are called to trust God, not question Him. When you put your faith & trust in Him, He will NEVER let you down. He has promised to be all we need & He will do that if you allow Him to. Turn your life over to God & allow Him to make something beautiful of it! He will be as close to you as you want Him to be. You will be in my prayers Alain & I pray that God will speak to the very depths of your heart & spirit.
July 11th, 2008 at 4:42 pm
First off, God be with you. Everything that happens in your life has a purpose. Meaning what you are facing right now is leading you back to God and that is a blessing. By the stripes of Jesus you will be healed if you believe. Do not be discouraged and think things will remain the same~ ALL things are possible with God and He is as close to you as the air you breath. God cares and He is listening to you. Confess your wrongdoing and ask Him for forgiveness and trust Him for a miracle. God bless and I’m praying for u!
July 22nd, 2008 at 4:23 am
Too late !
October 13th, 2008 at 11:33 am
I know what you are going through, I am in the same situation. Don’t listen to people who say “this is the way it should be” , “God does things for a reason”. Its your life and you have the power to change it. Just believe in yourself if God is far away from you, you have yourself and you can use yourself to get what you want. Its hard to imagine this, but you have to do something in order to get what you want.
Don’t worry it’ll all come together one day and we’ll have our lives back
January 21st, 2009 at 7:58 pm
try to enjoy everything in your life right now, think positively. i know, it wil come..that one d day your life will be btter it might not be the same as you want to be, but i know more better, trust me and have faith in god,nothing is possible
August 3rd, 2009 at 3:29 am
Alain,
I am concerned with the advice to “Just believe in yourself if God is far away from you, you have yourself and you can use yourself to get what you want.” I may be misunderstanding the intent in that statement. If I am, please forgive me.
Yes, you must believe in yourself and those capabilities that “God” has afforded you. None of us have the “power” to do “anything” by ourself. God gives us our power. All things are possible through him….all things. So if you are relying on self to conquer your demons, then I feel very saddened because you will remain a lost soul and live in misery.BUT, If you believe that you can do great things because ‘your father in heaven’ grants you the authority to do so, then I rejoice with you, as you will be able to overcome anything. If you have God in your life, you will have much power to do great works.This is his gift to you. He wants you to be healthy, happy, prosperous. He wants you as his servant, to share his love and the word and he knows that he can get the most from his child if you are healthy, happy and living a life free from the guilt depression etc. You will even have power much stronger than the many demons of this world. Not one demon can touch a man that has the shield of God around him. Do not trust yourself, or no man, only trust Jesus Christ. I