Dear God,
It’s been a hell of a year, but I’m still standing. Finding out I was HIV+ was the hardest blow I’ve had to take in my life, and that’s saying a lot. But I’ve survived it, and come to terms with it, and I’m finding the strength and the faith to keep on going.
I’m not writing to ask ‘why’. Or to tell you I’m pissed off at you for this. Or even to beg you to take it all away. I’m writing to say thank you for giving me this chance to come to a new appreciation of my life, and the people I love. And I’m writing to ask you to help me discern what’s next, and to have the courage to take it on.
Oh yeah. And I hope you know: I may not come see you very often, or even talk to you all that much, but you are close to my heart always.
See you around.
Jay, Shanghai/China Share:
April 22nd, 2008 at 4:21 pm
Often times people only turn to God in times of happiness and joy and to praise Him for the great things he has done for us individually, if not that then we turn to God to pit blame and ask questions and of this I am guilty. In a situation like yours, it’s easy to have a series of questions pile up and an anger build but I see it to be very refreshing that you turn to Him to give thanks in the midst of all these difficult tribulations and to even find something positive in something so devastating. I hope you can continue putting your faith in him wherever life takes you and you are truly an awesome example.
God Bless
April 22nd, 2008 at 5:44 pm
keep on the faith…you will overcome it……
April 22nd, 2008 at 6:22 pm
Jay, your attitude is so courageous and truly inspiring. I wish you health and happiness. Good luck.
April 22nd, 2008 at 8:46 pm
Hey Jay
I am very encouraged by your outlokk of life especially with your contracted illness. God is faithful and He is good. May His goodness flow from you to inspire and touch the lives around you =)
April 22nd, 2008 at 11:54 pm
Things do happen for a reason.
… it’s what you take, make of this that matters most.
Your outlook is very encouraging - all kinds of awesome.
I wish you the best.
April 23rd, 2008 at 7:54 am
Thanks, Jay!
April 23rd, 2008 at 12:34 pm
love your faith, GOD shall intervene.
April 23rd, 2008 at 1:47 pm
im glad to see your coping i bet i must have been hard
god bless
April 23rd, 2008 at 7:37 pm
U are soo BLESSED for your faith in God! Remember that,, this LIFE is not the destination.. its the vehicle to the “DESTINATION”
April 23rd, 2008 at 11:12 pm
Jay, I wish you all the best. Just don’t give up or something like that..
April 25th, 2008 at 4:09 am
Your post gave me chills. I love your honesty. It’s all going to be okay, you know.
May 5th, 2008 at 3:31 pm
Be good to yourself Jay.
May 11th, 2008 at 4:04 am
Jay! I have some problems, but none of them compares to your, I wish to have your strength and your courage to move on
be ok my friend!
July 25th, 2008 at 6:32 am
Thank you for the courage the move on ! Someone good is really at your side !
September 6th, 2009 at 1:13 pm
I’m not promising any miracles. Perhaps try Lucien Jamin from Switzerland as your path. I’ll give You the info.
While looking for the info I started to have to hold my tears back, not only because I’m hoping it helps, but also because I hope not to put You in the hands of the devil. You must understand the therapy is very controversial.
I would try but am not suggesting in any way You’ll heal, just that it might. I hope if You don’t succeed in getting better You will have mercy on my soul.
First things first: only use biologic food as from now on. No alcohol. No cigs. No drugs.
Second thing: Try to avoid using too much vitamin C, but do eat lots and lots of fruit.
Eat nuts. Walnuts.
Drink a teaspoon of aloe ferox (the wild variety) every day
Drink a teaspoon of colloidal silver every day for one month, then switch to colloidal Gold, after one week and half of treathment with Colloidal Gold stop using colloidal Gold unless told otherwise by any doctor who knows this therapy.
Start using a zapper (I have the one non-Hulda Clark, but I don’t know much, talk to Lucien Jamin…)
Drink at least 2 liters of water every day.
links:
http://pulsar.li/kosi/index.php
http://www.huldaclarkzappers.com/
http://freewill.20m.com/
http://www.shanti.com.au/body/zapper.htm
http://www.zapper.com/html/produkt.html
I have the last one. I must say a probably by parasites induced depression is almost totally gone. I hope this helps even but a little or a while. If not please be so gentle not to condemn my soul to hell. I’m telling You this because, and I’m trying to say that prudently, I read some alarming things about other than natural antibiotics. I still don’t know if I should’ve tell You all this, but if in a dead-end street I guess a gamble is better than no gamble at all. God bless us.