Dear God,
I don’t remember the last time i was happy. I hope you can hear me and help me feel alive again. Everyday I am suffering and I don’t see an end to my darkness. I just want to be HAPPY.
Aurora Mendoza - Los Angeles Share:
Dear God,
I don’t remember the last time i was happy. I hope you can hear me and help me feel alive again. Everyday I am suffering and I don’t see an end to my darkness. I just want to be HAPPY.
Aurora Mendoza - Los Angeles Comments
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September 27th, 2008 at 4:27 pm
I know how you feel, i guess alot of us feel like this, Ive been in a bad relationship for 3 years and just got out, but i still love him, i cant remember when the last time i was happy either, its been a long time, what can we do?
-Also Lost
September 28th, 2008 at 7:23 pm
i am so used to that feeling…. I loved him more than ever! for once in my life i felt complete! he was from a religion that many ppl didnt like! but our love was strong! we stood together.. one day we smile, the next day we cry! it has been 2 years and our of which 1.5 yrs we were having a long distance relationship… we tried to be strong… but distance made us weak! i sacrificed my world to be with him… but it was time to realize that cz of a lot of things he will never be able to come to me…………. we love each other a lot but for him, its “hard to come to me”………… so he cant make 1 sacrifice for me………. i made so many…… May God bless my angel!
i love him 4 ever.
but y cant things work out?
God please stop testing our love! we are failing…………. and love is fading like a flame……….
shezu, where ever ur, i love u! still thinking about u………
September 29th, 2008 at 6:21 pm
I want to feel happy again to.
i do team sport, netball to be exact , four times a week, training with school, then the school game, outside school training, then the saturday game, and i have to say, it cheers me up so much.
It just completely takes my mind of things - everything, and i can focus on what I am doing. So maybe take up a team sport, or go for lots of runs or walks - it will clear your head.
October 1st, 2008 at 12:24 pm
that sounds good
October 16th, 2008 at 11:02 am
I’m an only child(28 years old, born and raised in Mexico city) with a mother who had 3 broken marriages, 2 alcoholics and one bipolar who committed suicide in front of us. I tried to live a “normal” life, but kept all that pain wandering in my activities and daily activities.
Three years ago I started to gain weight, have anxiety attacks and just closing up, crying for everything and just sleep all day. I turned my life around my depression, trying to fake I was simply tired of working at home editing a magazine for a bank. I worked 2 hours and then slept. And I starting taking an anti anxiety medicine with out prescription. And still everything stressed me, going out was a pain, I had shivers, headaches, stomachaches, all I wanted to do was sleep. In those three years I managed to get married, went to therapy, started doing meditation and reiki, and started to eat more organic foods, and one day it just hit me, the thing is that EVERYBODY HURTS, and is easy, you choose to dwell in the pain and the past and the errors and in a present full of pain or just simply talk to yourself, you are blessed by being alive, to be healthy, don’t let the pain cripple you. You have to put a STOP to the pain, and try to be happy as a kid. Its hard I know, start with little things and write the down, like the sight of a humming bird, like a baby´s laugh, chocolate, funny movies, jokes, the beautiful shape of fruit, just like when you were starting to live. The same way you star to disenchant yourself of life now you have to fall in love again, try to meditate, just sit, with no distractions and talk to God, your angels, we are spiritual beings, that always comes first. Read Eat, Pray, Love. Try to stay in touch with nature, because technology and the city just freeze our soul.
Everybody has a mission, a special trade no one else in the world has, and you have to live, and enjoy, everything has a solution, just step out of the dark.
With love, may God guide you.
October 17th, 2008 at 7:08 am
Yara your letter brought tears to my eyes.
thank you so much it seems as though you can see and feel what i am going through.
Today i am going to STOP being unhappy.
thank you and may God bless you and bring much joy to you.
October 17th, 2008 at 8:28 pm
just prayed before i answered your answered your question. I know the feeling. i know how it feels too be lonely and unhappy.when i was 19 i took care of my grandmother in a asisted living home. that’s lonely when the next youngist person there is 80.it’s hard,to relate to them sometimes,but sometimes not so hard.i found out that by talking to them they could relate.some of them also care of older people like me.
sometimes it helps to talk to people.i’m not going to judge you this is my e-mail adress larissamariec@verizon.net
October 19th, 2008 at 10:14 am
Aurora, sometimes it’s hard to fight through the days and it feels like the world is ending but it’s not ending fast enough. A lot of people know what you’re going through. I used to cry myself to sleep every night and I never knew why I felt like that. It hurt worse than anything and I just wanted it all to end so that I’d stop feeling pain.
But, deep down in your heart, there is a glimmer of happiness and there is someone in this world who can help bring out that happiness.I am not a religious person, I hope you find that someone and find that happiness. All you need to do is reach out and ask for help.
Lots of love and hope and faith xoxox
October 28th, 2008 at 7:12 pm
green eyes says it for me.. not ending fast enough.. i wait on patience A LOT, may blessings and hope be yours to see ~lily
November 5th, 2008 at 5:06 am
Aurora, happiness and purpose in life comes from believing in your self. You must love and believe in your self. Write down all the things you are great at. You know what they are. What are your talents? You may be a good listener or a good writer.We all have wonderful things about us. Then write down some things you want to change. Whether it is about your personality or your living situation. May be your job. If you believe in a higher power then trust God will help you. Just know you have the power with in you to change anything about yourself or your situation.
Know that you can and will do what ever you need to do to take of your self. This will over flow on to everyone you come in contact with through out your days and trust me this will bring true happiness. Happiness isn’t a magic wand or pill that you don’t have access to, It is believing in yourself that you are valuable to yourself and others. Don’t ever allow anyone to tell you different.
I believe in you and your abilities.
November 10th, 2008 at 12:38 pm
A, hang on my friend. Find one awesome thing to think about each day. I know how hard this is in our challenging world. I didn’t get out of bed today until 3:00 p.m. because I just can’t seem to drag my lazy butt out!! But you know what? Once I got up and washed my face, I felt soooo much better. Really! I’ve lived almost 50 years now, and almost every year has been a challenge, truly! Some years have been awesome, and others a real bummer. Hey, listen, you could live somewhere else in the world where things for women are really, really awful! At least here, you have the freedom to go to a club, library, travel, etc., and not be persecuted (sp!) or shut down! Seriously! Look at the really persecuted women in lots of places in the rest of the world. C’mon sister. Stand up. Get out of bed and feel better! I truly understand your pain. Love you!!
November 26th, 2008 at 5:37 pm
You don’t have to be happy all the time either. I have had a problem with trying to smile always. But that just gets tiring.
Try to make others happy though and happiness will find you.
All the best,
Jes
December 29th, 2008 at 6:10 am
i feel exactely like this rite now :/
March 27th, 2009 at 4:46 am
So much wisdom in the previous answers. Happiness is in this moment. Nowhere else. What prevents us experiencing it is the thoughts that we allow to have control of our mind. Tune the mind into more beautiful peaceful things, & when thoughts that are not harmonious run through the mind, repeat something positive that you believe in 3x, or even better, focus on the air moving in and out of your nostrils for 3/4 breaths. Both will calm the mind, and allow you to return to the present moment where happiness is to be found.
If possible, take a trip out of the city to a place of nature, and spend a couple of days communing with Gods Creation The sense of peace that radiates from nature is remarkable.
March 30th, 2009 at 4:13 pm
Kayla,
Sounds nice, but sometimes you have to physically do things to remove the things that are causing the unhappiness. You can’t “wish” unhappiness away. It is good to “smile” or “live in the moment”, but you still have to find the cause, deal with it ( say goodby to that person or circumstances) then smile and live in the moment . All these things you have mentioned are very nice indeed and will help you find and stay happy.
I’ve had “days” of being unhappy so I can relate. In my experience treating unhappiness is about the same as being sick. If you are sick you have to find the cause to find the cure. Treat the cause not the symptoms. Starting with a prayer will put you on that road to recovery.
We all have our own methods, But I have often wondered about the method you refer to, I have heard others say this same thing. I wish it could be that simple for me. I have tried what you are saying and it has worked for a period of time. I’m wondering if what you and others are saying to do, is to avoid whats going on in your life that is negative and pretend it is not there?
April 6th, 2009 at 4:56 am
lord i look to you and lift up your child
i pray she finds peace and joy in you
please be with her
amen
October 23rd, 2009 at 10:48 am
I FEEL THE SAME AS ALL OF THESE PEOPLE LORD WHY IS IT THAT YOUR PEOPLE CALL OUT TO YOU FOR THE BLESSINGS THAT ARE WRITTEN IN THE BOOK OF TRUTH ,YOU SAY YOUR YOKE IS EASY COME TO YOU AS WE ARE ,BELIVE WITH CHILD LIKE FAITH HOPE PEACE AND JOY AND MOST OF LOVE ARE GIFTS FROM YOU ,YOU SAY TO ASK AND BELIVE AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE ,WHAT EVER YOU ASK IN MY NAME YOU SHALL HAVE …….WHY IS MY LIFE UP SIDE DOWN ,WHY IS MY JOY ,PEACE ,HAPPINESS AND LOVE LEFT ME AND AROUND ME .PEOPLE SAY I NEED TO DO IT BUT I CANT I TRY BUT FELL EVERYTIME NO PEACE COMES WIHEN CONSTANT FAILURE, FROM MY JOB ,MY MARRIAGE ,MY FRIENDS, I JUST WANT TO DIE ATLEAST I WILL REST IN PEACE,I AM SO TIRED OF BATTLING DEPRESSION LONELINESS, NO HOPE THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO PAY BILLS EVER HAVE PEACE FOR A PLACE TO LIVE, TO EVER BE ABLE TO SUPPORT A RELATIONSHIP WITH A WOMAN,I FIND IT VERY HARD TO EVEN SPEND TIME WITH MY BOYS,BECAUSE WE CANT AFFORD TO DO ANYTHING ANYMORE I AM ASHAMED OF HOW I HAVE LET THEM DOWN AND MYSELF ,NO JOBS TO SUPPORT IT ,NO ONE SEEMS TO HAVE THE ANSWER FOR NOT PASTOR ,THE CHURCH ,FRIENDS FAMILY I TURNED TO YOU AND YOU TURNED YOUR FACE FROM ME I KNOW YOU CAN NOT LOOK APOND SIN BUT YOU CAN CHANGE ME AND ALLOW ME TO HAVE LIFE AND HAVE LIFE ABUNDANTLY WHAT EVER THAT IS .WHEN ARE THE CHILDREN OF GOD PUNISHED SO MUCH WHEN OTHER PEOPLE OUT SIDE OF YOU PROSPER WHO ARE YOUR PEOPLE WHO ARE YOU.WHAT HAVE YOU PUT INTO ME THAT I CANT EVEN GIVE UP LIFE WHAT IS THIS HOPE THAT NEVEER COMES,I ASK YOU TO SHOW ME YOUR PLAN THAT YOU HAVE FOR ME SO I MIGHT WALK IN IT THAT MY LIFE WOULD BE ENJOYABLE,YOU SAY TO BE CONTENT WHERE EVER WE ARE BE I DONT KNOW WHERE I AM ANYMORE I LOST ,I ASK YOU TO TAKE ME I WILL NOT BE MISSED,ANY LIFE IS BETTER THAN THE ONE THAT HAVE BECOME,I AM ASHAMED TO HAVE MY CHILDREN THAT THEY SEE ME HOPELESS AND TELL TO TRUST IN YOU I HAVE NO WITTNESS FOR NO ONE,IT IS SAID YOU ARE NEVER LATE FOR ANYTHING BUT I FEEL YOU HATE ME AND HAVE FORGOTTEN ME,I ASK YOU IN JESUS ‘S NAME BLESS ME THAT I MIGHT HAVE LIFE AND HAVE LIFE ABUNDANTLY,THAT I MAY HELP OTHERS BY SHARE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME THAT THEY MAY BE BLESSED WITH PEACE JOY AND HAPPINESS…I STOP BREATHING IN HOPE THAT I WILL NOT LIVE ,WHEN I SLEEP I HOPE NOT AWAKE I THINK OF WAYS THAT MY LIFE COULD STOP ..AM I ALL READY IN HELL ………..