Dear God,
I’ve been praying everywhere so I know you already got this message but I just want to make sure. I know that you’re there for me and I know that you’re helping me through this, I feel you. I am so thankful for everything you have done to make things happen as they have so far as somewhere I always doubted that things would ever be here. I am so sorry to be so selfish in prayer when I know that there are people who need food and medicine and other more important things. It has been almost 7 years since we were together and there hasn’t been a day during that time where he hasn’t crossed my mind. I never believed in true love until I met him, and have had my doubts since then, but now that he is back I see it wasn’t all in my head. Things between us were real. It is amazing and awful at the same time. I messed up so badly. I know I did. I don’t understand why I did and I don’t know of anything I can do to fix it, but I do see him trying to forgive me. Please allow him to find forgiveness. I have let everything go, please allow him to do the same. I truly love him. No one has ever come close to feeling the way he does. I am afraid to be happy and I am afraid to be sad. I am afraid to do anything wrong that might mess things up. Please let this work out. I feel like I need nothing else in life. Please. Guide me in the right direction. Just like everyone else I am looking for happiness.
Christine, USA/FL Share:
June 21st, 2008 at 6:24 am
Don’t feel afraid to be selfish. You need to concentrate on yourself for now so that you may help others in the future. The word you seek for is not selfish but self helping. Don’t be afraid to be happy. We’ve all made mistakes here and there but we deserve to be happy. If we are not happy, it reflects on us and onto others. So don’t create that type of energy. So be happy. Start everyday right with a good thought and a good feeling. God wants you to feel that way. It’s just up to you whether you decide to be happy or not. He gives you opportunities all the time, you just have to take it. Don’t worry about others right now. If you totally help yourself out at first, you will be able to help out others in the long run. Hope that helps you.
June 24th, 2008 at 2:27 pm
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August 11th, 2008 at 10:09 pm
Dear Christine
There is no need to be afraid. Just be yourself, your goodself, and please dont try too hard.
If you love God and trust in Him (there is no reason not to because He loves you dearly) then whatever happens will be for the best.
Love and Blessings
ashok
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