Dear God,
I never knew anyone who died. I always worried it would be someone really important. I always worried it would be him. He was the love of my life so far. We had a plan. He was going to be my husband. We named our children. How could you let him fall? How could you let him get to the point of taking his own life?
He was only 22 years old! He was the most talented guy I know! He could make ANYONE laugh! He was searching for your light for so long, and he NEVER found it. Who’s fault is that?
I can’t be angry at him, I can’t be angry with you… I just miss him so much. My heart hurts and I still can’t process that I’ll never see him again. It’s not fair.
All I beg is that you’ve taken care of him and will continue to do so. He deserves to be happy for once, and you owe him that because you’re the only one who can hand it to him. Make sure he knows we all love him, that I’m sorry, and that I will love him forever and ever times a million times a billion times infinity plus one. I swear.
Really Alone, Texas/USA
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Posted in Love
Dear God,
I am not sure how to start this but I just need to know why. Why would you take my wife away from me? Why let her die of cancer at such an early age? Why take her away from her children who need her so. I do not understand how you could take her instead of me. Our children would have been so much better off had you left her here. I don’t have the answers! I don’t know what to do! Now I ask why are you letting Jacob get sick? Wasn’t my wife enough, do you really need my son as well??? Why God?? What did I do to deserve this???? I love you and I will never turn from you but why??? I write you this with tears in my eyes stinging my cheeks. My heart is broken. I honestly will not be able to handle life if you take Jacob too. Please lay your healing hands upon him and give us a miracle this Christmas. No more hospitals! No more sadness for awhile, please I beg you! I plead. Please God hear my prayer and give me some peace. I need some peace of mind and soul, of body and heart. I need to feel happy again and know that there is hope.
Please dear God hear my prayer. Amen
Mike Thomson - New Mexico
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Posted in Family
Dear God (more specifically, the Christian one),
I have to say I don’t believe you exist. The fact that I’m writing to you right now is not in anyway an indication that I do. I come from a religious family who I would never ever tell I don’t believe, just for the reason that they may take me away to be exorcized. The reason why I don’t believe in you is because there is a perfectly logical reason for why you don’t exist. Religion was created a long time ago before technology, and so you (god) was an explanation to the things humans could not explain. We all know that the ‘divine truth’ has its scientific inaccuracies, that even the Pope has agreed to recognize. But at the same time, the bible came with lessons on life that are all important, and i appreciate the fact that the notion of god has brought happiness and hope to so many across the world, I don’t need to explain this part. But at the same time Christianity has brought pain and condemnation for having conflicting views throughout history.
The concept of “be good and you will live a good life in heaven”; I heard it often as a child and it will never make sense to me. This is a religion where it relies on selfish desire to live a good afterlife. It is a religion partly driven by the fear of hell.
It is ironic that on this website, it is not god (you) that answers the prayers, but the people. And that’s the great thing about this site, where people do not get answers and the advice they lean on god for, we supply that. We are god, because we created god.
Love from myself - Australia
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Posted in Belief
Dear Spirit,
I want to leave my husband. But I can’t find the words. I feel like I’m moving on a different path than he is. I thought we had the same dreams and desires, but I feel like I’m growing away from him. You know he’s been unfaithful, and you know that he lies. And a large part of me is unwilling to forgive such dishonesty. I look at him everyday and think “why was she so special? why did he not care enough to tell me? why did I have to find out the way I did?” I feel like I’m not good enough for him. And I feel like my thoughts and my distrust are ruling the relationship. For my own sanity, I need to leave. For my own peace, I need to change. But help me find the words. I pray that you guide me, to find my own peace and serenity. Then I know I will truly be free.
Amen….
JM - Florida/USA
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Posted in Family
Dear God,
I hate my big sister. I really do. I know that it’s meant to be impossible to hate a family member but I know with all certainty that I never want to see her or hear from her again. Every time she is around me, I get filled with such rage. She doesn’t leave me alone, she just sits down and smirks her fat face off at me. I can’t stand it! She calls me all sorts of names, steals from me, swears at me and physically hurts me. She is so fat that she could crush me. I honestly hate her, and sometimes I feel like a bad person because of how I feel about her, but she has driven me to this realization! I can’t escape her. She’s been out of school for 2 years and stills lives off my mum and dad, all she does is sit around the house and wait for me to get home so she can attack me. She has the maturity of an eleven year old… I Hate Her!! Please, please, please God make her go away! Do anything to her, I don’t care as long as I never have to see her again. I honestly hate her!
S.K - Melbourne/Australia
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Posted in Family
Dear God,
My girlfriend had an abortion last month. We talked about it, cried over it and came to a conclusion that its best we lose it. She was devastated after the ordeal as she felt she had lost a little part of herself during this incident. We are both young, desperately searching for better things in life. I am not financially stable or mentally ready to have a kid yet. I was told no one is ever ready. She knows i don’t want a kid yet, and she aborted it cos’ she loves me. She very much wanted the child but realized realistically we can never have one right now. Repercussions are severe. Everything reminded us about the abortion. Contrary to popular belief, men suffer from this as well. The guilt and frustration stemmed from this incident bores no limit. I couldn’t find strength to go to work everyday. I am mentally strained knowing that it happened because i am selfish.I am not able to make love to her nowadays due to this. Its just not the same anymore. Maybe its the stress, maybe work is wearing me down. I don’t know. She told me she couldn’t continue with me because seeing me reminds her of all the pain and hurt she had to go through.I sometimes feel its best if I can just vanish from this country, away from everyone I know and start afresh. I know fleeing seems tempting but i still stand here with my responsibility towards her.So dear God, can you give me the courage to forgive myself, be a better man and move on?
Ritcher, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
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Posted in Confessions
Dear God,
I grew up in your church that told me that sex before marriage was wrong and could lead to destruction in relationships later in life… I abstained. Now I’m married to my beautiful wife that grew up under the same pressures to abstain. We don’t have sex because there are so many barriers and fences put up in her that sex is bad, sinful, guilt-riden, and carries all these negatives. (Now, she doesn’t say these things, but its what I surmise & feel from her) While dating, we grew strong spiritually and emotionally, but the sex/physical intimacy was avoided. Now we are like on a 3-legged stool with only 2 legs! Falling. Honestly it sucks with the sex drive that you handed me! I waited my whole life for this? And when we do make love, it has to be in the bedroom, on the bed, missionary pos. no exceptions… ever. God, is this what you intended for this beautiful experience? Sometimes, shamefully, I wish I’d taken advantage of all the opportunities I had in HS or College. Hear my cry Oh Lord! Why is it so bad to talk about this important intimate part of a marriage relationship? Yes, I’m a Christian and my sex life sucks!
Michael, Wyoming/USA
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Posted in Sex
Dear God,
Please help me to believe in love and happiness. I’m finding it hard to keep believing. My dad died when I was three, and my grandad died when I was seven. I often get bullied at school and everything I try to do in life I fail at. It’s sad that I have given up on life at the tender age of thirteen, but I just don’t see the point in living anymore. I feel like I’m just going through the motions. Whenever I try to talk about it to other people they just think I’m having a teenage mood swing. I’ve felt like this for almost a year now. Please help me to see the beauty in life, please give me something to look forward to. Please show me a sign that someone somewhere cares, please give me something to live for.
Molly, England
57 Comments »
Posted in Belief
Dear God,
I wanna die today.
Anonymous, Philippines
46 Comments »
Posted in Death
Dear God,
Please help me to see clearly. Help me to understand where to place the puzzle pieces which are my life. I desire love, passion, contentment, and peace. I’m working daily on experiencing these things on a practical level.
But it’s like there are two things at work…my higher spiritual self, who knows just how to perceive a situation so that I can bear to go through it, and then there is the seat of my wounded soul. It is lonely, afraid, insecure, angry, hurt, and empty.
This is the space that I need you to fill. I need your help, your comfort. Please show me how to live. What to do. I’m lost.
AD - Ohio/USA
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Posted in Faith
Dear God,
I am in a relationship that balances itself out - sure she’s with me, and yes we’ve had several years together, and yes we have a 3-year-old son. Yet, I cannot help but think that she does not truly want me in her life, or is at least hesitant to commit, regardless of what she says.
For one, she cheated on me early on with her ex-boyfriend. For a second reason, she refused to marry me after I proposed to her. And thirdly, I have not been comfortable inviting my parents - my only true “blood” family - to visit. It’s painful to think that I am just a convenience for her life. I often fall into thoughts of leaving, or at least being with my “second choice/last crush.” But those are quickly dashed because, as it often becomes the reality - life is more of a blessing than a curse. My relationship may be tainted, but it is not lost.
I find myself being more grateful, yet still need that connection with my parents that she so often gets with them living with us (and now, next to us). I just want a strong, united family for my son and me, and without her support and ability to overcome her obvious low self esteem, I cannot do anything and await your miracle to save this family. Thank you for listening.
Chris, CA/USA
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Posted in Family
Dear God,
I’m in the middle of a mental struggle. I want to find myself, what I am and what I wanna do with my life. I want to be comfortable in my own skin, my own personality. I was in college but I dropped out because I felt inert, studying for a degree not to pursue something in my life but just to fill social expectations. My emotional being is waiting to be released, I want to be unleashed!
I want to find comfort, to fulfill my dreams, to fulfill my being. I want to help people, but I feel I can’t because I’m not completely in tune with me. I depend too much of what people think of me and I’m in a stage of my life where I feel I’m cleaning that part. But am I really doing it?
God, I beg you to help me, I know I’ve disrespected you before and I will again, so I’m truly sorry. I’m being honest because I don’t have any other place to go and like a big liar and hypocrite, I come to you when all the doors are closing. Thank you for your love,
I promise I’ll be loving as much as I can.
Jaime, California/USA
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Posted in Belief
Dear God,
I have been trying to figure out if you are really there or not for twenty one years. I am a man of science and a man of logic and you simply just don’t make sense. I yearn to be saved for selfish reasons only and if I can’t overcome that mentality how can I ever be saved? I think you have proven to me in the past that you exist but I still don’t believe it. I still rationalize that my life is so terrible for a reason and that it all must be for something but that directly contradicts my real beliefs. I’m lost.
Jason, Florida
23 Comments »
Posted in Belief
Dear God,
I pray that You show yourself to all of these people that are hungry for commitment but are tired of religion. Help us all.
Adilson - Portugal
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Posted in Faith
Dear God,
I have a twin brother.
Two weeks after I left for college you tried to take him from me. You let his car spin out on the high way, right into a tractor trailer. You let him stay there, trapped in a car crumpled like paper beneath a semi’s underbelly, for an hour. You let my parents wonder if they still had two children. You let me regret going out of state for school, for leaving my family. You let him go through surgery, casts, pins, tests, scans, probes, pills and hospitals. You let us all wonder if my brother’s dreams of college would come true, never mind if he would ever reach the skies in the Air Force. And that God, did not satisfy your demented agenda.
You let us think everything would be alright. You let us know the bones could heal, the schooling could happen, and the dreams could still fly. Then you let the bump grow. Right then, in the midst of cleaning up the wreckage of our four lives – especially my brother’s, my only brother’s, my better half, my best friend, my soul mate – you let the tumor you’d been hiding for years as well .
The tumor is on the left side of his brain. It has to come out. Soon, God, you will let him go to the hospital again, to be sliced open again, to have metal replace bone again. God you had your chance already and didn’t take my twin brother away, you cannot change your mind now.
A - Ohio/USA
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Posted in Family
Dear God,
My 2 year old died in April of 2007. I have had 2 miscarriages after that. I am now 8 weeks pregnant and have been complications. Please don’t take this child from me. I have been praying since I found out I was pregnant. Please help me!
Cynthia S - USA
19 Comments »
Posted in Family
Frustration…..Anger…..
Exhaustion…. I never thought I would be the type of person to regret my life. Yet, here I am with an alcoholic and drug addicted husband and I hate it. It is 11 pm, he left hours ago with our only car …will he be back before morning? If not, will he be sober? Why do I have to go through this again….why does our son? I often wonder if he has burnt out his brain with these drugs. Does he realize that we could lose everything if he gets caught using drugs at work?
Then I wonder if you even care…..my life is not hard. I know that I have it good but is it wrong to want honesty, respect and love?. Or is money and posessions all that matters?
I know you love me and watch out for me…would you also watch out for him? He needs something drastic to happen in order for this chaos to stop. Help him…I know that with your help Tob & I will be fine.
Anne, Illinois/USA
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Posted in Confessions, Family
Dear God,
Reading the messages from all these people puts life in such a widespread perspective. I can’t say I really know why I am writing this, to be honest I don’t have any sort of firm belief in a God but I am assured that there’s something greater than life unknown to us out there.
I have recently been feeling very emotional and spaced by life but in no way on the same scale as some of the people writing to you here. Today I have remembered my brother who passed away in 1999 more than I have in a long time in that I looked further into the rare syndrome he had (Crouzon’s syndrome) as at the time I was too young to understand. Remembering what my parents and he had gone through all over again was strange and made me cry for him. I still find it difficult to talk about even to my parents although I have reached acceptance of his passing. I often pray to him and believe that he is still with me and my family in spirit in someway. He is my guardian angel and I will always love him and miss him deeply. I thought to myself today about what my life might be like if I had him around and I realised how hard it is now to imagine him existing in my life as it is now since moving and my parents divorcing. In retrospect I appreciate that his early departure was probably for the best so he didn’t have to suffer so much but i miss him so much.
Life is so strange and indescribable really, the things that happen to people, the different pathways, the way that the consequences of such small decisions can change so much. And how there are so so many different people’s lives and stories out there all completely different.
Thank you for bringing me a good life. I won’t say that it’s perfect and right now I’m finding it tough but I like to think that there’s such a thing as fate and that we’re all here and everything happens for a reason. I know that things will improve and all you can do is look ahead. I think if anything I’m writing this just to clear my head and say thank you rather than to ask anything of you.
If there is anything to ask it would be to bring happiness to my boyfriend. I don’t know what it is exactly that he’s going through right now but please help me to have patience with him and to understand. Keep him safe and bring him back to me when I next see him. He’s not been himself lately since we’ve been living further apart and I love him so much. I just want the old him back.
I’d also like to just mention how inspirational this site is and how moving it is to read everyone’s prayers.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
p.s. thank you for music.
Moved, UK
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Posted in Family
Dear God,
Where to begin…
I go to a military boarding school and am struggling with the idea that I might be gay. I’ve lived my entire life around the idea that girls are who I should be with, but I can’t explain my attraction to guys. It’s weird, and I’ve never been with a man to any extent, but I feel like I should. Every time I kiss my girlfriend, I feel like a liar.
Is there something wrong with me? Did you make me this way or am I just a freak?
Scared - USA
41 Comments »
Posted in Confessions
Dear God,
Reading this page has made me realize just how lucky I am. So many people just want to be happy and safe, for the moment, I am both.
I am thankful for my life, my career which I adore, my students who trust and look up to me, my friends who love me, my family who love and care for me, my wonderful home, my brain and my intelligence. Thank you that the sun comes up in the morning, and goes down in the evening.
Please give all the people who need it strength, be with them and hold their hands though the tough times. I believe, without a doubt that you have a plan for me, please help me to fulfill it to the best of my ability, there is a reason everything happens, help me not to get side tracked with my own agenda.
When it is my time to go, and I hope it’s no time soon, I hope that I will have made a difference. xxx
Blessed - South Africa
10 Comments »
Posted in Gratitude
Dear God,
I used to think, IF YOU WERE REAL WHY WOULD U SCREW UP MINE AND MY FRIENDS LIVES, but I’m now over that, I’m up to the stage that your either there or your not.
I was raped by my brother for 5 years, but of course you already knew that, and I know why u did that (if u were real), seriously I don’t know what to think, like there is so many things proving against you, and everyone calls your son Jesus which means they don’t like you.
Why cant u just show yourself to me, and prove to me that your there ???
I keep asking but i see nothing, as the saying matthew 7:7-8 says ask and you will receive, I haven’t recieved anything after many times of asking, please just help me god, show me your there,
Thanks xxx
Cruisez - AkA Sezza, Melbourne/Australia
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Posted in Belief
