Dear God,
I think it was last night that I finally decided to turn this over to you. As you know, I’ve struggled with being promiscuous for more than two years now. I hate the person I’ve become; I hate thinking about all the people I have had sex with. I am ashamed and I have felt alone in my pain because I haven’t let you take over my heart. I hate the false dichotomy I’ve been living - loving you, loving everybody, growing to know you better, all the while still having sex with people I barely know. I can’t do this anymore, & I know you’ve finally decided to intervene, no longer letting me go it alone. I love you,Lord. You have to save me from this. Take away this burden, make me new, make me to accept your forgiveness, and to open up to somebody I can trust to hold me accountable. Jesus, your forgiveness & your grace are so overwhelming. I can not praise you enough.
Jenne - California/USA
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May 31st, 2008 at 1:03 pm
Beloved Jenne
I AM glad that You are Here. I watched over you and your growth at every second. You are always on my mind. I cannot take your heart, because it belongs to you. I cannot intervene for I love you so much that I know you can triumph over this obstacle. I cannot take away your burden, because I believe you can grow stronger, wiser and more compassionate through this ordeal. You know that you are always loved and there is nothing you ever do that is ever a mistake that lasts forever. You have the power, the free will and the empowering responsibility to face your challenges with a smile, and I am proud to know that you will overcome this challenge.
Know that I am always with you, proud of who you are. The natural real you that I can see clearly, so beautiful and pure. You are who you are. And I love you for that.
I AM
June 2nd, 2008 at 8:27 pm
Dear Jenne,
You are very brave for admitting your weakness. And I honor you for that. Thank you for giving others the courage to maybe admit their own weaknesses and do something about it.
I was in the same quandary before and I’d love to say that I was able to stop because I heeded God’s help. I was able to stop because I broke up with my boyfriend. I am not sure what will happen if I enter into another relationship. But because of you, I will not give up this struggle because I know I am not alone.
Let us pray for others going through the same confusion.
June 3rd, 2008 at 12:04 am
Unfortunately.
This is one of my CONSTANT struggles. =/
June 3rd, 2008 at 2:26 pm
What is the problem with having sex? Why is it bad? There is nothing wrong with having sex as long as you are safe about it.
July 7th, 2008 at 9:22 am
before you do anything drastic!……..come find me, lets grab a drink!(ask around you’ll find me)
July 15th, 2008 at 8:42 pm
Jenne,
Your not the only one out there.
Hang in there, the lord has heard your prayer but you also have to fight.
I’m struggling myself, and I honestly regret some of the things I’ve done.
God Bless Jenne
July 20th, 2008 at 12:04 pm
Jenne I know your pain, it is a big weakness of mine as well and I know above all else it distances me from god and makes it hard for me to love. I asked god if he could take away all the wrongness from my mind that has been put there by things I have exposed myself to (pornography, loveless sex) but he told me that he cant. Every day, hour, muinite and second we choose by our thoughts what we are going to become, choose different, try to think different, its the only way.
I know how hard it is and sometimes I just feel like giving up, Ive shed many a tear over this.
The hardest thing is that society constantly crams it down your throat, everywere we go we are exposed to sex and nudity, on tv, in magazines, on billboards in the street. Sex should be for a man and a wife who love one another and it should just be about love. its a shame that the world makes it so hard in this day and age for us to be pure.
August 4th, 2008 at 9:18 pm
If you have the feeling that what you are doing, or have done, is “not so good”, than it means you are willing to do better, to find something real, something that suits you as a person. I
If you have a goal you want to achieve (be a better person, stop doing certain things, for starting) it means you have started a journey that is going to be VERY difficult, just because you have to leave certain “pleasurable” things behind. It’s hard, something billions of people know right now.
It doesn’t mean that sometime you’ll make some mistakes again, but now, you will be on your feet faster, more determined.
Good luck !!
September 15th, 2008 at 2:33 pm
In response to Michelle. There is plenty wrong with pre-marital sex. it all has to do with soul-ties. which is why its so heartbreaking….
The rules and laws set in places by god are there for our GOOD. if he wants us to wait. it is for good.. ALL GOOD THINGS COME FROM HIM!.. is not just a saying….. he gave us sex.. for a reason.. to be intimate with the one we will be intimate with forever. so we wont deal with the heartbreak you hear about in this very site. Dearest Jenne you are brave and wise. and he loves you so much… Be strong and any moment you feel week pray to him and he WILL guide and help you
- With love AKL
November 6th, 2008 at 7:14 am
Dear Jenne,
It’s so good to her that, I struggling with the same….
But I don’t fell guilty at all, but I know it’s wrong, but I just can’t find a way to stop it…
You are very brave!
Please keep it up, and God bless you…. and me!
November 10th, 2008 at 2:11 pm
Jenne, you are being way too hard on yourself. Sister, there are lots of us in the US that have “played in the field” if you will as girls/women, but you know what? Compared to the guys, we’re not even close. Now, I understand that in comparison to the ladies in the bible we’re way outside the “norm”, this is a new world. Sis, we have a right to feel good about ourselves, whether that means that we have sex on a regular basis with ‘friends with benefits’ or not. In my opinion, God did not set a standard about this. C’mon sisters, we have a right to pleasure just as much as our men friends. I’m sure that I’ll receive a lot of differnce of opinion about this, but you know what? I just don’t care!
Anyway Jenne, I’m sorry that I sort of stood on my soapbox, but you need a champion. You’re not wrong. You’re not alone. I love you. We all love you. Just because you happen to like sex (in my opinion), doesn’t make you a bad person.
Now, if you’re concerned about letting go too often, well I can relate. As a woman of almost 50, I have finally figured out that it JUST DOES NOT MATTER! Sister, enjoy your life, your sex life, and move on! Seriously! I know its scary, and against the “norm”, but its worth noting that we have changed the way of the USA. Move on sister!!!!
August 10th, 2009 at 4:58 pm
I am so happy I found this while searching the web. I realized I am not alone in this struggle. I have had problems since I was 18 and sex has always been the cause of much hurt and unwanted feelings. This past year I went as far as breaking up with my boyfriend of over a year to be with another guy who was pretty much the kind I always find uncaring and mean. In this I learned I need to make better decisions and heal myself before I seek the approval of others.