Dear God, Last spring I had a mental breakdown; I guess you already know it, if you noticed. I’ve always believed I could solve most things with hard work; but I think maybe I finally overdid it.
Anyway, I thought I could heal if I just took some down time. One month turned into three, and now it’s been a year. I am not crying constantly anymore. But when I try to face going back to work in the regular world, I feel like I need to throw up. I work from home now, doing what I really love, but I can’t make ends meet this way. I am out of ideas. I feel panicked. Some days I think it would be easier just to stop trying to make something out of myself. Please, just send me some inspiration; my current work relies on creativity, and I feel trapped out and that scares me to death…
Terra, MD/USA
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May 21st, 2008 at 1:46 pm
Did you used to work with me at my old job?
Probably not- but you described what a lot of us went through while in it’s employ.
I have been in doubt of my abilities too, but you have to get your resume together, and start thinking that there is probably a position out there - and it may be something that you never envisioned doing - that will make you excited to get out of bed in the morning, and you deserve to have that. We all do.
Just keep working to find your way. Volunteer some - helping others is a great way to help yourself.
Best luck to you and you have my prayers.
The Chaperone
May 21st, 2008 at 11:57 pm
I think this is a great way for people to be able to open up to God in their own language and give Him their problems and their graditude and to be able to ask for direction in their lives.
This is a great tool to develope a prayer and communicating way of life to grow close to the Lord and grow in their walk with Him!!
This is a Blessing to have and to help the people who are lost in their spiritual search for the Lord.
We all need to understand God is an all Merciful and Loving God, not a condeming God .
He understands our walk on this earth because He came into the flesh to expierience sin for us and finally put it to death!! All we need to know is we need to die to ourselfs to allow the walls of fear to come down and let God into our hearts to work in us. Thank you and God Bless you, Robin
May 25th, 2008 at 6:01 am
Terra, I understand you very well. I had an accident two years ago, and i can not continue my life as before…Try to see the thing in this way: we have a second chance… to live and love, we deserve, as the others do, to be happy. ÁNIMO!!!
May 30th, 2008 at 3:21 am
Terra,
I’m totally with you right now. You took the prayer right out of my mouth with your post. I too have been working out of my home (in a sales position) b/c I thought I needed a break from the rat race. I haven’t been making enough money and I need to get back out there. I have a Graphic Design degree and have been doing some free-lance work on the side. I’ve decided to try and get back into GD full time but feel so creatively tapped out and I’m freaked. I’m also dealing with a lot of social anxiety about having to report to an actual office.
I found this site today while searching the web for creative inspiration. I don’t know what is next for me. At the moment I’m just happy that I found this site and read your post. It’s nice to know at least one other person out there is going through a similar situation…it helps keep the fear at bay.
Just keep moving…one step at a time.
Best wishes!
June 10th, 2008 at 9:05 pm
Thank you all for your kind words–some days are better than others–yesterday, I had a meeting about a new piece of work that has some promise, and even though it’s a baby step, it feels like a little light creeping through a doorway. I think I just have to be brave enough to believe in my ability again, and try to wake up my passion. It feels like it’s dead, but maybe its just sleeping or hiding because I’m still scared.
I am praying for all of us who live on the fringe, trying to find a way to make it in a world where we don’t quite fit the rules—
love,
Terra.
June 29th, 2008 at 2:40 am
hey you,
ok absolutely believe in your talents and abilities for didnt god give you those, he will let you wield them when the time is right. Know that the mind is where the enemy attacks so stay strong and maybe even get therapist to serve you as a sounding board so you can get everything together in your mind. You are still the amazing normal person that you have always been and always will be but now you have some anxiety so learn to control it and get that buisiness on the search engines so you can get some money.
God bless you
July 21st, 2008 at 12:58 pm
Hi gang
I also am going thru the same thing I love designing to death (so to speak)and the funny thing is I just found out lately that Iam colour blind and agree with wat Derek ,Terra and the rest of the gang said. if anything Id like to add this little words of incouragement
“My Friend Breath! Believe & Booggie”pliz dont ask where it came from it just happened now.Hi…hi
GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU who have come before me and to those who will come after……thinking and praying for you all
praying for HELP! and thinking HAPPY DAYS!
Jah bless.
July 26th, 2008 at 4:48 am
there is a book out called I think the mind it was written bye a some doctors about that 85% of all disease are from the mind and the rest are from environment, genetics and food. We all know that we only use 10% of the brain. And I have made a lot of money and have
made little money and it always seem that the more I make the more I spend, but I know that all things come from heaven. I had a period
I my life that I didn’t work for six mouths, I mean not out of choice thing just dried up, it got down to where I realized what is important in life
money will come and go so will thing, and you can not take any of it with you. So what are you holding on too. let me tell you a story, I had a friend that had to tell the loved ones that he was going to die and that god had let him know thought doctors that he had only a year to live, he thought that he would beat it he died a mouth later from after he was told, he went to the hospital on monday evening @ 4:33 and by tues morning 1:55 am he went back to the lord. I know a family that was gone in one fall swop. We some time worry about thing that we should and thing that we have no control over. I have learned to let god lead and I will follow, I’m still trying to follow because he is a good dancer and I just a beginner with to left feet. life is easy we are the one that make it had, with god nothing is permeant but change is not every day differnt is not every mount different, one days is never same as the other, it changes learn to accept change, when it becomes fun then and you let him dictate you day and mount not like a robot but a friend. Then you will understand about my yoke is easy and my burden are light, never does it say easy. god blessing with you and take off the curse there are not how he wants you to walk with him
September 20th, 2008 at 12:07 am
Just like some others, I came across this site by chance……?
I was obsessed with my career and my family were on the periphiral. In the end my family won, and my health, thank God!
I have been searching recently for the right job for me and I know its out there but is just beyond my grasp.
I was at church today and prayed for a guiding sign. When Mass had finished a friend came up to me with a gift from Loudres and holy water. I feel that this is a sign not to give up and to be grateful for all that I have.
Please pray for me to help me on this journey…………I am already praying for you. Take care x